Why?A Story by Cookee korczynski
How are you?
Mind: I’m depressed, unwanted, I’m the second choice, I’m never enough, I don’t have the right body, I’m too skinny, I’m not strong enough, I’m ugly, I want to die. Help me. Me: I’m Fine thanks for asking. Why? Why is it that when people ask me how I am, I hide my true feelings. Because if I said that all and that “I’m not okay” they would most likely say, “it’s just sadness. You’ll be over it in a few days.” But I’m still not over it when my friend took his life a few years ago. Tell me. If it’s “just” sadness why hasn’t it gone away yet? Why is it still here? Eating me alive day after day. Depression is not sadness If anything they are completely different Sadness is an emotion that leaves me weak. but depression? Depression is like a disease knawimg at me from the inside no antidote just endless amounts of pills. It wants to be let out The demons want to be free But you can’t let them out For the fear ond reality of if you do you are a freak. A misfit. Something that went wrong. A mistake. So yes! I have an illness. An illness that can’t be cured by anti depressants. Stop sending me off to counselors I don’t want to talk to strangers I don’t want to take pills to be happy Because taking pills is just showing that I have to fake happiness and I don’t want to talk about my thoughts. Why? Because sometimes my mind is just the safest place. © 2019 Cookee korczynskiAuthor's Note
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4 Reviews Added on February 3, 2019 Last Updated on February 3, 2019 Tags: Depression, sadness, anxiety AuthorCookee korczynskikitchener, ontario, CanadaAbouti am depressed and use writing to cope more..Writing
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