.freak

don't stare at people who are different

They all stare

I know why they all stare

But it doesn’t mean i like it

I am frankenstein the scared girl.

The ladders of scars flow up and down my thighs and arms

They run

They look at me in disgust

They look scared

Never help me

Never even try to get to know me

They think i do it for fun

I do it for feeling

Sometimes i just want to say

“Hey what the f**k do you want”

But i never do i just hide my face and leave

I wonder if it will always be this way

No one loving me

How could they anyways

I'm a freak

a piece of s**t

Nothing more

i don't deserve to be loved

I need to accept it

I don't want to

I want to be normal

I never can

So maybe life isn’t meant for me

Maybe i should quit

I guess i will see what happens.

Reviews

[Chris]

If you'ld have asked me back then, I would have said I just wanted to say "hi" ...if I could've gotten the words out. Times change but still remain the same in so many ways. We catch a breath when we can.

[Coyote Poetry]

I felt the struggle in your words. Hard to be the odd-ball in a world where normal isn't norm. Sometimes you must be who you are and don't accept naysayers. I have never follow the path of many. I prefer to seek quiet and read good books. Thank you Cookie for sharing your words and your thoughts.
Coyote

[barleygirl]

I have felt this freakishness & so I can say that the last 13 lines spell it out in the raw harsh way that it really does go around & around inside the heads of people who are feeling like outcasts. Even tho this narrator has a certain issue (it sounds like cutting), your poem can also apply to those who are obese (like I've been), or those who are in a wheelchair (like I've been), etc. I'm not sure if I agree with your suggestion under the title. I would like for people to look at me like a normal person becuz looking away can be as painful as staring (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Cookee korczynski]

thank you and yes you are correct I do have a mental health including cutting and bipolar disorder and much more I appreciate your support.

[Cookee korczynski]

also what i meant was to not look at people like we are freaks