voices

mental health is not something to be afraid of or to shame people for having, we should help them, i have mental health, people look at me like i'm a freak i just want to be normal.

I hear them speaking quietly 

They get louder,stronger

They take over 

I don't know why i listen

I can't ignore them 

'They just get louder 

They make me grab the blade and drag it across my fair skin

the deep chrimson come gushing out 

so pretty

then i see my mommy and daddy's face

"The voices made me do it" I cry  to my mom

She says to stop making excuses

I turn to daddy 

pleading him to believe me

" why won't you f*****g grow up" he says

i collapse onto the cold hard floor

the voices so loud i can hardly hear anything

i just sit crying in the corner waiting for it to stop 

for the buzzing and screaming to quiet

i know they won't stop

not until i do what they say 

the voices drive me mad

when mommy goes to work at night

my dad throws me against the wall 

he is speaking

i cant make out the words 

the voices to loud

mommy isn't home

he reaches under my old t-shirt 

then into my soft black cotton skirt 

i don't like it when he touches me 

but i can't tell anyone the voices say not to

they say to keep quiet 

they say that i should enjoy this 

i don't 

i plead and plead him to stop

he doesn't

the voices are my only friend 

but my voices are also my worst enemy

Reviews

[Chris]

You've captured the gestalt... in such a lonely, lonely way.

[Coyote Poetry]

A scary poem. People with mental illness can struggle. I felt the confusions and the need for the voices to stop. You made your point in the poetry. Honest and strong description made the reader understand. Thank you Cookie for sharing the amazing poetry.
Coyote

[barleygirl]

Your writing expresses some mind-blowing depths of the human condition. I have many similar experiences from my own childhood (sexual abuse & being bipolar). I often wish I could go to those deep dark places in my writing, but I usually can't. Or I can only stand to look at it a little bit. That's why I admire you for digging all this out & putting it on the page for the world to see. Your details paint a vivid realistic experience. Great job helping others understand how this can feel (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

One more thing . . . I used to put "mature" flag on such writing, but teenagers felt blocked from my stuff & asked me to stop using the "mature" flag. I believe this is honest life material to be read by teenagers, so I never use the "mature" flag anymore.

[Cookee korczynski]

that is the reason I do not put the mature flag on mine I am 16 years old so that would mean that I couldn't read my own writing

[siobhan]

Good structure, brilliant descriptive use of words. Lovely raw emotion. However I think this is mature content and could be triggering to people, other than that I found this really good. Please don't take my negative comment to heart though, just getting used to the structure of the website (I am new here too).

Best wishes for now, keep going.

Siobhan