goodbye

Hey i'm not doing so well, my brother has gone "missing". He breached his conditions so if he is found he will be taken into custody . I know you are probably thinking "why not bail him out?" well his bail is so high donald trump would squirm and my parents think he needs to stay in jail because he needs hep. They expect me to be okay but he is my twin brother and i never got to say goodbye so im not okay. You have no idea what it is like to walk into a house that only silence will be there to greet you. Sometimes i forget he isn’t there and enter the house with a smile and yell “TYSIE I’M HOME” but i remember he is gone about as fast as my smile disappears and i sink to the floor sobbing and gasping for air. I pull myself up the stairs to that drawer i hide my razor blades in so i can cut out the pain and the numbness all i think is “OUT, OUT, CUT IT ALL OUT”.. It is like i am walking a tightrope and he is at the end cutting the rope so i fall it is a long way down to those sharp spikes waiting to impale me and cause me eternal pain i try to yell at him to stop but no sound comes out he keeps cutting until it finally snaps sending me into a nosedive straight down gaining momentum until finally i feel the worst pain i have ever felt then i feel nothing.

Reviews

[Dawn McKinney]

If this is truly what's going on in your life then I am sorry. I can't relate to this particular piece but I have read in your profile that you are depressed and use writing to cope and I can definitely relate to that. Hang in there ... and keep writing. :-)

[Cookee korczynski]

thanks and i will

[Chris]

I'ld like to "hear" a story about your brother and you - to better understand your bonding as siblings. I get the missing part and taste an anger as well.

[Warrior]

This is so deep. It feels incredibly real. Well written

[Cookee korczynski]

thanks so much!

[Elizabeth Mars]

An incredibly emotional and heart moving story. I love the imagery and rawness of this piece. I would love to read more of this, if there is a continuation please let me know!

[Cookee korczynski]

there will be a continuation soon i will let you know when it is up. thank you for your review!

[barleygirl]

Very heart-wrenching & my heart goes out for you & your entire family. Your honesty & sharing of vivid details drives your story home in a strong way. I hope this doesn't last long & most especially I hope it doesn't morph into a lifelong plague as these things can sometimes follow a person long after a price is paid (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Coyote Poetry]

A very sad story written. I had father and brothers who went to prison. You must keep in contact and support. Without family. We are alone. I hope things become better.
Coyote