she's contradicting again

I don’t know if I can be defined or contained in an image or a particular idea of who I should be or how I should act. I am everything and nothing. I embrace my uniqueness. I embrace my inner mind. the inner me. but the more I share who I am with people, the more I lose myself. 

maybe I’m just someone who spaces out the world when he or she is numb. he tells me I scare the hell out of him and calm his soul at the same time. maybe that’s what love is, one great big contradiction that somehow balances out in the end. I fight the falling but crave the affection. my mind is filled with a bunch of what ifs and I contain several multitudes. 

it’s always been hard to put my feelings into words, I always feel like I’m repeating the same thought over and over but in different words. I may have a personality disorder or I may just be fucked up or I might just be “contradicting again”

Reviews

[barleygirl]

This is a captivating little spiel that most people can relate to. Some people are linear & programmed & logical, but not us artists, huh? Your title is a brilliant idea & I love the way you use it again at the end, in combination with other possibilities. It's not easy to express extreme uncertainty & still make it sound reasonable, as you've done here. Fondly, Margie

[SweetWriter88]

Wow. That was so good! I felt your truth shine through as I was reading this. The flow really appealed to me and I agree with you. Sometimes it feels like the more you show of yourself, the more you question everything.

Very well done!

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Honestly, thank you so much for taking the time to leave your feedback. i truly appreciate it.
read moreHonestly, thank you so much for taking the time to leave your feedback. i truly appreciate it.

And I'm happy you enjoyed the poem as well!

[A.marie.speaks]

I like this one, probably because I feel like a walking contradiction most of the time. This one feels very honest, I enjoyed how you abandoned the rhyme scheme for this piece. It's like an inner dialog which is always refreshing to read.

Great write!

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thank you

i really appreciate this

[Rebekah Smith]

This is SO relatable. The double connotations of seemingly "simple" everyday life are lost to most minds...it baffles me. The dual nature of things is just like a roiling sea of waves in my body - your words hint at the feeling. Great work :)

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I'm so glad you were able to relate to this and thank you!

[anonymous_at]

Let's just say.......That I'm actually speechless........You are awesome.... .....After reading most of your works....... It feels like I'm no where to you........No offense please.... Just expressing myself.... :)

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oh wow.. thank you

you're amazing yourself though!

[anonymous_at]

I don't think so... But thnks anyway.....

[Marina]

This is such a powerful writ. It's raw and it speaks a very uncomfortable truth. Especially this part: "i em"brace my inner mind. the inner me. but the more i share who i am with people, the more i lose myself."
Lately I keep thinking the same thing. It's like the more I show my true self, the more people seem either to not notice or to think something is off with me, and then I don't know who the f I am anymore. Thank you for sharing that.

p.s: no you're not fucked up.

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i couldn't thank you enough for leaving such a thoughtful review, this means a lot to me

read morei couldn't thank you enough for leaving such a thoughtful review, this means a lot to me

& I'm really glad that you were able to relate to this thats one of my objectives...i try to keep my poems raw and from the heart!

[Blank_fortunes]

You're Fucked up. But don't worry that let's you know you're human.

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haha, maybe

[{A}shley {B}lack @-;-]

I love these inner voices you are able to put into words you have a natural talent for making your poems relate another great piece keep them coming

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thank you and you keep yours coming as well!

[JackValor86]

these are the types of feelings that are mostly in your head

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I'm glad you were able to relate to it.