Drowning through oceans

Drowning through oceans of happiness not a single lifeguard in the surrounding

It’s scary to be here, a place that only existed in my mind. This ocean has become my reality, my everyday, my entire existence, with nobody to save me from the ignorance of it.

This ignorance is blissful and never disappoints the craving that has become the oxygen that keeps me alive, yet not entirely alive. This is normal to others but they have never experienced the truth of the skies. The Sky threw me into this ignorance of happiness.

It sent me plummeting from reality and consciousness into this bitter sweet ocean. Consumed by its beauty with no intention of ever leaving is where my mind finds itself.

My physical being fights the inventible and such a good fight it puts up too but alas I still find myself in this ocean facing down.

I don’t want to face up as it reminds me of the sky that once embraced me with all its might and power, the sky that now mocks my ignorance in happiness.

I don’t want to face up as the story of my past is displayed for everybody to see.

I don’t want to face up as the warmth of death stares down at me.