Tear filled Eyes

Tears fill eyes full of love, not knowing how to process it. Loneliness being the arms that held me for so long. Struggling to let love in, not having truly experienced it but always dreaming of it. You have showed me glimpses of it and fearfully I approach but with this transparent glass keeping me away from what I should deserve. Should being the important word.
Help that you offer and help I seek but with no legs how do I take that first step? Free me. Please. Help me take that step into a world filled with happiness. Ah happiness an artificial feeling I've felt yet not fully feeling it.
Tears not wanted seem to flow freely mocking the freedom I long for. Free from sadness, free from this world.
Its just a step away. Close you eyes, release all the unnecessary baggage acquired through years of stillness. Word less being what defined, feelings felt that should never have been there.
All of my life I've been in hiding, hoping, praying the things you said could be true, now that you're here I see that this feeling might be true...
And slowly I close my tear filled eyes and sleep never  knowing this peaceful state... And as I close my eyes I let the transparent glass fall away knowing that in this dream your words of wisdom become real and nothing can steal it from me..
Closing my tear filled eyes I see my soul and its innocence and yearn for it to feel the beautY of love and happiness.... It feels it with me in dreams and somehow I want time to bend so that this dream may never end but as I awake and open those tear filled eyes of mine the dream of freedom slips away just a bit until you shower me with words of love and wisdom. A beautiful song escapes from your soul and finally I realize and feel that you believe in me  and as realization overtakes sadness you sing a sweet melody of beauty and the endless transparent glass of death falls away....
I follow my heart and love leads me through the darkness and as that first step is taken this shackles fall and released from death I am...