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A Poem by Qistina
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this was something i wrote in reply to a friend, who had emailed me.

"
the weekends are fast and
i can't slow it down
i can't read
i can't write
i can't find enough 
time to do 
everything
i love
except cry
over television that makes
my heart
stir

i sleep more and more
more than i used to be able to
and my eyes open
in the middle of the day
which is a waste.
i am becoming careless
with my work
with what i have to do
with what i am supposed to do
with what will make me happy 
(will endless hours of working pay off?)
i hate being confined to
all the things i am bound to
and yet they say never
forget where you come from,
but i feel myself
slowly disappearing
is this what it's like
to grow up?

i'm sorry i haven't had time
to start writing for the zine
but i will try 
my best
because i want to create 
something,
and i know that you do as well.

i eat more than i did before
i am always eating
and it scares me
because i can't tell if
this is good or bad,
when you eat just because.

in one of the books i am trying
to read,
it says that you can't
protect yourself
from sadness without
protecting yourself
from happiness --
i am starting to feel
the full effects 
of being lonely.

i guess you can't
call this a poem
anymore --
it's too long,
and tiresome,
and boring,
and unchanging 
in what it's trying to say --

kind of like
what life 
is supposed to 
be.

© 2013 Qistina


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I've had plenty of these kind of days. You just have to untangle your mind and climb out of it. This life is tiresome, boring, and unchanging, but better things will come!

Posted 11 Years Ago


I've been through worse... It reminds me soo much of myself. Thank you soo much for such lovely poetry.

Posted 11 Years Ago


You have expressed yourself completely.
Perhaps you have spoken on behalf of a lot of people of the world.

Posted 11 Years Ago



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Qistina
Qistina

Kuala Lumpur, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia



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I am a 17-year-old girl who uses writing as a way to uncover parts of myself I cannot consciously uncover. more..

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