we were nothing but some words scribbled on air

and all the things I buried

come up through the gut

knocking at my throat

threatening to take my voice

but I fill it with whiskey

and hollow laughter

I drown my secrets 

you never asked

what was wrong with me

it never mattered

in the end

we became strangers again

in the saddest sense of the word

how do you mine your own soul

like there is treasure 

somewhere in the darkness

it was never a good idea

to wander down there

in the empty echoes of a person

you didn't want me

that's what this comes down to 

and no amount of confession

will drag your warmth back 

to my hungry eyes

you are forever distant

a dream 

I was never meant to catch