Here We Go Again

How could I have been so stupid

I let it happen once again

I'm in love, I'm trapped once again

 

I try to push you away

Doing the things that I know best

Drinking, fighting, yelling, hiding

Behind a hard shell

 

But behind brown eyes you find

The truth within, crippling to me

I can't help but let myself

Be damaged by you

 

I stand for it all

Unable to forget or let go of the feelings that bind me

To a person I know will end up bringing

More pain than happiness

 

And still I stand by your side

Waiting for you to knock me down

Waiting for the tears to start rolling

For the hatred to fill my heart

 

That day'll come

Sooner rather than later I hope

Or else it might just be too late

And you'll leave a gaping hole just like the others

 

Or maybe I'm just not giving you the chance you deserve

Too afraid of slipping too far

Too afraid of letting go of the resentment I have towards the rest

The plastic film that protects from the stains

 

Either way here we go again

The downwards spiral the leaves me dizzy always

That leave me groping for the support that is too far to reach

For the balance that I can't seem to find

 

Love me or make me hate you

But I beg you to do it soon

Too much longer and I'll love you forever

And another piece of me will disappear