Tick tock

It seems as if every night I lay awake longing to have someone by my side, but soon remember that the person next to be would be of no significance whatsoever. Knowing that you are empty inside is a devastating feeling. Wanting so desperately to give love to someone deserving, but yet having no love to give. It's as if my lively heart has been ripped from my chest and replaced with a sort of ominous black hole. Sometimes it feels like a cloud looms over me at all times, reminding me of my past and what I've been through. I crave an escape, something of significance. Though, I am very unsure if that will ever come to me. I hope for greater things every day but I am beginning to doubt there is any hope left inside of me.