Forgotten memories, they creep back just to rip me apart, (why can't I just throw it all away)? Screwed up and volnerable, reduce me to who I am, to what I deserve. I don't want to here this anymore, this can't be truth. A life created by rape and hate. Im a number that is much lower than you. Im so fucked up so why can't I just throw it all away? There life is so sugar coated consumed with love and tenderness. It makes me sick. Don't lision to them, they have no clue. Please let me throw it away. Inside am dying.