You, You Were Terrifying

You, You Were Terrifying

You were different

I could tell simply by the way you said my name

The way your lips form it

And coming out of your mouth

It sounded so safe

 

But I kept you at an arms distance

because I didn’t quite know if I wanted to be yours

but somehow I was abundantly aware of the fact

 I didn’t want to be without you

 

And you were everything I desired

you respected me

you cherished my thoughts

and I was never once fearful you would hurt me

and that’s why, without second thought

I ran as fast as I could

 

And they say we fear the thing we want the most

And you, you were terrifying

And me,

 I was so afraid of losing something I loved

I refused to love anything at all

 

And when you left I sought to tell you everything

How much I enjoyed you

How much you had beautifully distorted me

How much you still cross my mind

 

But the lines are so blurred

I like you, that I can finally admit  

But the fear of hurting you is still there

And above all

I’m scared after this little time apart

You realized how much easier life is

Without someone like me  

 

So I sit in my bed with tear stained eyes

 holding every word of this back

Refusing to tell you how I feel

Out of fear of being the girl

who chases something,

simply because,

 it is no longer hers

Author's Note

Just a rough draft, Would love feedback, thoughts, and suggestions

Reviews

[Forevermore]

I love this. This piece shows emotions very clear, I guess I can say I've related to this. I love your form as well, I haven't fully found a form for myself I'm new so this is definitely a perfect example to learn from. So far I would say its very well thought and wrote out.

[Kesch (Finding Julia)]

I love this piece, This is really good, it is emotional

[twinistix]

Gorgeous...I can relate. You did a good job of collecting the thoughts that were only tangled in mine.

[Justin]

that was awesome:) you dont need to change anything, i was able to see everything in my head :) great job :)