If You Don't Let MeA Poem by clsmith766This is a poem that describes being in a relationship with someone that takes one for granted
There is so much to say; I dont know where to start.
I guess the best point to begin is to speak from the heart. The more I reach out for you; the more you run away from me. It seems like the distance between us exceeds infinity. Its not like Im asking for your number after you said no all night. But its like your filing a restraining order right after you have given me the green light. And when I take a hint and try to go my own way. You blow up my phone like 9/11 the following day. I want to understand you, but you will always be a mystery. The more I seek and ask questions; the more you evade me. When I try to talk to you, you want space and to be left alone. However, when I start to walk, you wont let me be on my own. Im not perfect, but I try to be considerate so you dont regret me. However, I cannot love you if you dont let me. Even if you are terminally ill because of an incurable disease, Dont push me away until I am at your gravesite, mourning on my knees. You have been through hell; no one will argue that point. You kept yourself together under pressure that puts other people in the joint. I am not Jesus; I cannot heal all of your wounds. I am not Donald Trump; I cannot purchase the moon. I can give you my respect and undying admiration. I can show you my heart without stipulation. I can show you my actions with continuous dedication. I can give you those things without the promise of penetration. But I cannot give any of myself without getting a piece of you. I am not referring to your body: your mind and your heart are the things that make you. I have my faults, but I try to do the things that will make you not want to forget me. However, I cannot love you, if you dont let me. You say you dont need him or want him anymore. But if you think hes coming over, Im treated like a pet being pushed out the back door You say you dont want to make it official, or let the words cross your lip. But how do you have a relationship outside of a relationship? You say he was abusive and went upside your head. If he is so dangerous, why is he at the hospital, standing next to your bed? You say he is your childs father, and I should let it be. But if he hit you while you were pregnant, arent both of your lives in jeopardy? If we are together, why do I feel like I am in a race? If your baby daddy is in the picture, I always come in last place. I can take rejection, respect your decision; but I am not your tool. I am not a yo-yo, and I will no longer be your ready-made fool. Trying to love someone that does not love you is bad for your health. Sometimes, the best thing is to leave them be and continue to love yourself. I can continue to associate with you and still be your friend. But I cannot continue being a convenient stand in. If I continue on with them, where will my self-esteem be? Ill be putting myself through Hell for all of eternity I cannot be with you if you continue to neglect me. I cannot love you if you dont let me. © 2008 clsmith766 |
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2 Reviews Added on June 10, 2008 Authorclsmith766Humble, TXAboutI enjoy various form of writing including articles, essays, poem, short stories, narritives, extensive prose, novels (including science fiction, fantasy, political fiction, and horror) some biographie.. more..Writing
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