Invisible Scars

A man reflects on his past and struggles with the demons its created.

The invisible scars of my youth still burn deep.

The bruises are gone, there is no evidence of abuse,

But they left a mark forever, to be seen only by me.

 

You never said you were sorry, it’s like it never happened.

But I remember; I’ll never forget.

It’ll be my burden to carry wherever I go.

No matter how far I run, I’ll never forget.

 

Sometimes I can’t even look at you; sometimes I wish I could.

I want to forgive, but it’s hard to forget

How I had to live, in fear of my master, like a dog.

 

Even when you do good, it’s hard to smile.

You never taught me a thing.

Did you even want me around?

 

I can’t forgive you yet.

Maybe when you’re old, or when you're gone;

Maybe then I can let it go.

But I’m just not strong enough.

 

You stayed by our sides, you didn’t run.

I wonder if we’d be better off without you.

At least I wouldn’t feel guilty about

Hating you.

 

I don’t know if I hate you.

I don’t know if I love you.

I don’t know how I feel.

I don’t feel anything.

 

One thing’s for certain -

I’ll never be like you.

Reviews

[DBURKE]

I love this! There is a lot of emotion (hurt, pain, confusion) in this poem, but that is what makes it so sincere! thanks for sharing-