ZACK

i miss him

i miss him

he was my true my one my only

he was

i miss how it was simple

there was no constraints

i miss how he just understood

without any explaining

i miss how we could just sit and be in another world

i miss when i would lay my head in his lap

and melt as he combed my hair with his long fingers

i miss the smell of his cologne and the way he kept his room

the picture of pamela anderson in the skimpy bikini and that small little tattoo

i miss his smile and the way he would just be there

i miss how the world would stop and neither of us would have a care

i miss zack more than i ever thought i would

i knew the day i told him we couldn't talk was no good

he made me do it

with a knife to my throat

there was no way of turning back

and calling him was no joke

there couldn't have been a worst time

to tell the man i truly loved

that forgive me sir

i must admit i am with a total a-hole scum

but for not for him for not for that man

i would be with zack and we would have our own traveling pants

we would be flying high in the skies of blue

over the campsites of our youth

we would be discussing the differences between hot and cold soup

we would be reminiscing of our times in school

there was that point when i would see him at first

butterflies flew throughout my body

i became that nervous little school girl

it is no coincidence running into him three years past

but to have to give it up for that jerk that mean old a*s

and so i left that love

the love i only knew too soon

and flew over to london and quickly met a new groom

i floundered my way into his heart and then his beautiful flat

constantly trying to call him but never being able to reach my love ZACK

when i returned to learn he decided to end it

shortly after i moved

the devastation the guilt the pain in which i am consumed

i know better than to carry it around

but it's always those paths less taken that keep that guilt looming around

it's been quite sometime

but it still feels like yesterday

as i imagine 

and if he were here there would be nothing for me to say

my heart has found a home elsewhere in another man

and sad but true i wish it were you

but choices we made and choices we stuck with

dang i need some chocolate!