one last chance

Related to but not entirely about a test I have today. I guess you could also say it's about my confidence,something that has been lacking as of late.

the cool air whips around my face,

bracing me,

it's cold compared to recent weather,

but even so,

unusually warm for an october's day.

my breaths come out in wisps,

a result of the cigarette i smoke,

to calm me,

ease my nerves,

it's only now i realise i'm shaking.

sleep usually dulls my mind,

but today,

it has sharpened it,

already today i've done things seemingly impossible,

it's time to do it again,

one final time.

this is it,

my last chance,

time to prove people wrong,

as i always do.

the train arrives and i stand,

every joint cracking,

usually bringing pain this only serves to demonstrate,

demonstrate my demeanor,

my confidence.

i may be shaking,

but it's not fear,

oh no,

it's confidence,

something i've been missing for a while.

one last chance,

one last time,

and i believe,

i can do this...

i can seize the impossible.

Author's Note

May not be good but it's helped with nerves.

Reviews

[The Winter Grey]

I liked it... the imagery was great and the point came across clearly. It captures a brief but powerful snapshot of that "moment after the change," and that harrowing choice to allow the change to remain. Good job.

[DearSweetAgony]

A great way of venting, and a great write in one!

[Chris]

THAT was worth my pausing and listening to...

well said, well done.

Chris

[Kelly M.]

I liked it. The descriptions were so clear I felt like I was out in the October winds. :) Great job.