Home Is A Foreign Country

Shed some tears when you leave.

Not the kind that miss you

the kind that hurt me. 

Smiles fade real quick when you're around.

Even though I miss the view I'll settle for the sound 

of your voice through the phone.

I was fine here on my own

till you came and made me realize I'm still sad,

still can't sleep and still worry, still mad at dad.

And you sat and called me stubborn, I just hate to be alone,

and I refuse to spend the holidays pretending.

I'm not blaming you this time

I'm just saying that my mind

is fucked

and its easier to blame someone

then to blame it all on fate

because someone is just easier to hate

Got that feeling back, the one in my chest.

It never really goes away. I just feel it less.

More piercings and a tattoo:

just doing things cause you wouldn't approve

of them at all, but you don't approve of anything I do. 

even if it's something I did for you.

So what's the difference I gave up

I'm done trying, done showing up 

to make you happy, to give you the time

you don't get a relationship without trying

to understand me and the way I work

It's a little different then most

Springsteen won't help this time, Dad. I just hate to hear the past.

And the winter was never this cold and lonely.

I'm not blaming you this time

I'm just saying that my mind

is fucked

and its easier to blame someone

then to blame it all on fate

because someone is just easier to hate

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Easy to blame others for life. Wisdom come when we learn. We are responsible for the good and bad in a life. Easy to look for someone to blame. Life is a test. In the end. Home is where most of us feel safe and secure. Thank you for a excellent poem.
Coyote

[Seshat Nidaba]

Great title, I can so relate to this, the chorus/last stanza was gorgeous. Great tone, just so relatable.

[Antonio Valentino]

"I was fine here on my own
till you came and made me realize I'm still sad"

"and its easier to blame someone
then to blame it all on fate
because someone is just easier to hate"

"I'm done trying, done showing up
to make you happy, to give you the time
you don't get a relationship without trying
to understand me and the way I work"

"Springsteen won't help this time, Dad. I just hate to hear the past.
And the winter was never this cold and lonely."

I hope you realize how well you write... everything so far you've written has been exemplary... looking forward to reading all your other pieces, I'm going to pace them though... so I can give each one enough time to appreciate them..

Great, great job.
Antonio

[Luke Ritta]

great poem..this is excellent.

[Vinod Kumar U K]

Wonderful write up all ingredients is substantial to digest..

[Casper]

"and its easier to blame someone
then to blame it all on fate
because someone is just easier to hate"

An absolute perfect line right there. I absolutely loved it. I loved the entire poem, but part was the absolute best.

[trainwreck]

This had all the truth of real poetry, and the anger played nicely. Your cursing was surprisingly well-placed; something that is rare on this site. Great job.
favorite line:
"and its easier to blame someone
then to blame it all on fate
because someone is just easier to hate"

[Shep]

Only person I blame is myself because the was never one around, but me to take the fall. Nicely done love the poem and the memories it renews.

[Klep]

The rhyme scheme here wasn't as tight as it could have been and I think this poem would work better as prose. Still, you got your emotions across and I could feel both your sadness and your frustration. Nice job.

[Little Birdie]

"and its easier to blame someone
then to blame it all on fate
because someone is just easier to hate"

Isn't it? In the midst of chaos it's easier to find something to vent out on.
I love your poems, I'm probably boring you already, but you're really talented and I enjoy reading them :P