Happiness is Exhausting

This year I smell of lavender
And your second hand smoke
I still haven't thrown you a rope
Every time I think I might I choke

I keep letting you fall too far
Damn your touch. Damn your hands.
Damn your promises and plans
You love me more then I can stand

I don't think I drink enough
You drink way too much
I can't believe you thought the music would tear us apart
Sometimes I want to break your heart

Just because I know I could
I have no excuse
It should be easy to love you
I finally found my brilliant blue

This year my lips are stained pink
And my courage has grown
I may have no place to call my own
But my heart has a home

And the house that you've built
Was built in spite of selfishness and guilt
I'll try to ignore the splinters

Reviews

[Writeforlovely]

I like the last line a lot! Your imagery is good and I can feel your emotions through your writings. Good job!

[Chase]

I like the emotional depth that you have created in this peice, and the little bit of sensory writing. If I were to offer a suggestion, though, move away from rhyming. You shouldn't have to force a piece to rhyme when it doesn't carry the tone of the poem. To throw a challenge out to you, Meghan, I urge you to read this poem several times, get in the same state of mind that you were in when you first wrote it, and then rewrite it with no rhymes.

[Adam Adams]

"I may have no place to call my own... " Beautiful line, it's.
Liked how beautifully and emotionally you capture the feelings of your bare naked heart in such pleasant words. Very evocative! Title's, of course, very eye-catching as well... the whole poetry contains much depth of your real life for sure, it displays the scenario of love, undisguised and craved to have everything so badly just to feed your heart.

Ps. Even the happiness's resided in love so the love's dwelled to happiness brought to spirit by ecstatic love-life. Nice imagery you've come up with!

[PoetryPenPal]

A poem full of fierce emotions. It was strong and powerful. A great piece. Thank you for this poem. It is wonderful.

[Myenigma]

The emotions made are strong. I can feel some of the sadness and frustration.
and this line in particular is very interesting to me
"I can't believe you thought the music would tear us apart "
The love for music (which can also be a persons mood, taste or personality.)
can sometimes come in as conflict,lol, years back I remmeber all the bieber trashing i did one time. some three years ago.. the brother of this girl played it a lot, and I had my mouth open when I found out she really liked it too, the thing is people start maturing into "acceptance" (Which is a stupid thing to say because everyone should be accepted) I matured a lot in that sense, and the funny part is you start liking their musical tastes even after not seeing each other,......I might be a believer...

I like the last stanza

[Baby Ricochet]

Decent poem with a great title