The Truth of my Fading Youth

This is one I wrote a couple years about back in March of '08.

I’ve finally come to see the truth
About you and I, my fading youth
You say everything you do is for us
But time and time again, I’m thrown under the bus

You know so little about me, I’m practically a stranger
Did you even realize when my life was in danger?
You were always trying to protect me from others
But when I needed protection from myself, you didn’t even bother

I was crying every day, I was planning to take my own life
You never noticed the marks made by my own knife
Now, years later, I again notice how little you truly care
Not so much my feelings, but my future for which you’re never there

I was relying on you for support when it was my time to shine
But when I gazed out, of you there was no sign
When I first realized, my stomach felt full of bricks
I wish you would try as hard as you do when you need your fix

No wonder I don’t tell you things, it’s a matter of trust
Something of mine you don’t have, and not for reasons unjust
I could go on, listing how I feel you’ve wronged me
But what would the point of that be?

I know things will never change
I suppose you could have done worse, I could be more deranged
Now I go to make the best of my fading youth
Because I’ve finally come to see the truth

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self-awarness at the end.. thanks for sharing its very moving and chokes at my feelings cuz this is so relatable. 100/100