Death

It is a personal expression of my experience with death of a loved one, my aita

Dark and mystified, you hide behind the shadows

Pouncing on people like a blood thirsty tiger,

Instilling fears in the strongest of the hearts

Your smile shudders me to my inner core

You are the blatant ultimate truth that hits me hard each time you take a soul

Incomplete lives, incomplete goodbyes are all that you leave

Yet today I stand pondering why, o why

was there not a pall of gloom but serenity and peace

not a fearful scorn but a glint of smile

no said goodbyes but this feeling of a blessing on my head

My aita* died in her sleep 

without warnings, without farewells 

our family was orphaned with the void of her absence

but still i can feel her more than i did when she was a lively old lady

understand her givings and misgivings

Did death separate me from her?

or did it help me know her better? 

Maybe till i breathe i am bound to dread the inevitable,

keep choosing to keep it miles away from my tiny world

But now, death doesn't seem to be as dark and dreary,

It is the time when I break the physical metaphors and learn to trust my unknown abode somewhere.......

Author's Note

*aita means fathers mother in assamese

Reviews

[Chiradeep Patra]

Chandrika! I have lost my 21 years old cousin brother in 2011 in a Bike Accident. So I know the pain and heart ache of losing a beloved. I can understand the pain you all must have gone through.

About the poem, good that you didn't allow RATING on this particular poem. Its a very well written poem and heart-felt expression, very intimate and very precious.

God bless!

[Chandrika Konwar]

Thank You. This poem is my personal expression for love and desire for my grandmother, very sacred to me.

[Akshat♥]

I really enjoyed every bit of this piece...
thanks for sharing it with me:)
Keep writing!!