Escape

 

Escape

 

Everyday, I strive to be the person you expect me to be:
No matter how hard I try I’m more the mistake that I was before.

 

When you don’t see me, refusing to hear me out,
this empty room in which I sit becomes the epitome of loneliness.
Sustaining my last breath, I had hoped you would see it through.

Sometimes,
I wonder if the only answer is to escape...
I hold a knife so close to my heart;

Would you care if I bled to the end?

 

Would you then say, "I was worth all the
Mistakes?"

 

You profess that your words are protecting me;
But like a disease, they are killing me

Why can’t you perceive the person inside?
At times I ponder the truth of it all.
Would I be better off dead?
Maybe you would never notice me gone...

 

All I know right now,
is that I want to escape from the pain I’m feeling.
Tears fall like rain;
they never stop.

 

My heart has grown cold from the gray clouds which have enveloped it.

 

I hear you screaming on the other side;
not discerning, how imminent it is, and my escape. 

 

I lay down the knife because I want you to hear
the last shot you gave me.

 

The pain is unbearable, I want to escape

so I will not make any more mistakes...

 

Would this make you happy?
I’ve made my last pop,
and now I’m here
lying,

Shivering...
I’ve finally escaped the misery that chained me to this very room.

 

By:  Chong N. Kim
February 22, 2004

 

Reviews

[Joseph - Michael]

It sure is a sad piece you've written there... the pain we make by mistakes while trying to make the others happy and it feel like it's the only solution to erase the mistakes and make others happy is not just only to die for them, but their loves, so we can escape the pain we've created as well...

On the other hand, I really can relate to this and thank you for sharing this piece... Somehow, it just reminded me not to make the same mistakes I've made in the past...

So, it's all still good tho...

[Carey Lenehan]

Pain radiates out of this... the anger imbedded in the imagery also reverberates. This could as easily refer to a lover or a parent where the misunderstanding has created this level of alienation in someone. Your words are so heartfelt and burst with emotion. Tough times are hard to suffer, but they make for great poetry! :)