Dear God

My personal prayer to the God of my understanding.

 

Dear God,

 

There is so much
I have to tell you;
I’ll keep it short and sweet.

 

...Much I want know:
Have you really been there for me?

 

Wondering why my life sours so much, or
why I'm always in the wrong?

 

Point me in the direction I need to go...

 

My mother never loved me and
my father perceives me as a mistake.

So, who are these two people that you sent
to be my vigil?

 

I’ve heard people say
good things about you,
yet, I’m confused as to your existence.

 

I try my best to be the girl
which was created in your image...

 

Acquainted with an awful place, 
where people burn in Hell...

Wondering, at times,
is it’s too late for me to do something right.

 

People tell me everyday,
I’ve have so much to give,
yet my faith in you
has greatly diminished...

 

What shall I do?
Learning a few things in life,
hoping they will give me
strength.

 

I longed a mother
who would teach me to be 
a model woman.

 

I sought a father
who would never cease

Calling me his
Little Angel.

 

Oh! I have siblings,
three, should you ask.

 

 

Three precious jewels,
younger than me;
very innocent
and so naive....

 

Why is it that I am the only one who?

Recognizes the wrong doing?
What causes the others to be so blind?

 

Alone within this battle:

If I'm doing what's right please help me through it...

 

And if I am be wrong cause me to move on to where I should go.

 

Only you know the destination of my pain;
donate resign me to this place...

 

Give me a sign
as assurance me that
things are in balance...

 

Alight a soft kiss
upon my cheeks
as I fall in bed
to sleep.

 

I will be waiting for you...
Until then,
I will release my pain
leaving the rest to you.

 

Amen-

 

Chong N. Kim
8-21-02