Can't say GoodbyeA Poem by Chong N. KimA poem to my father who is currently suffering stomach cancer. I love you, daddy!I think of the countless words We never had the chance to say, Of all the ways you’ve touched my heart. Why has there been a wall between us? Why do I feel so distant from you? Your days here are slipping away, An endless nightmare of uncertainty, And I long to lash out, to fight for you, Desperate to keep you by my side. I can’t let you go, Because I need you here with me. I've lost so much in my past, Made so many mistakes, And no number of apologies Can bring me peace. The few memories I hold Replay like a fragile film, And the thought of losing you Sends me spiraling into fear. I never truly understood Or appreciated all you’ve done, But this time I’ll do better, I’ll make you proud. Please, don’t go. Please don’t leave me behind. I’ll never forget at five, You taught me to tie my shoes, At sixteen, you warned me where to tread. Now I’m old enough to know, Yet you still kneel to tie them again, As if I’m still that child of five. When I see your frail hands, And your gentle smile, All I want is to capture the moment And hold it forever. I know I’ve disappointed you, But if you stay, I promise to make you proud" That is all I ever wished for you. When you said you didn’t want to fight anymore, I wanted to honor your wishes, But my heart is slowly breaking inside. I can’t imagine my world Without your laughter, Without your smile, Without you at all. I just can’t say goodbye. (c) Chong Kim, 2012 I love you, daddy! I love you very much! Thanksgiving 2012
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3 Reviews Added on November 23, 2012 Last Updated on September 24, 2024 Previous Versions AuthorChong N. KimDallas, TXAboutI Am: speaker writer artist ...singer performer mother activist abolitionist fighter and a survivor. I've done public speaking since 2003 and have appeared on local and national televi.. more..Writing
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