07-01-17

Drinking, drinking, drinking

I'm not trying to forget you

But at the same time I am

I'm trying to forget that you're not here

Trying to forget that I can't hold you

Can't kiss you, squeeze you, tease you

Can't be with you

And yet I can't live without you

So, here I sit

Trying to forget about all the s****y things by drowning my thoughts in a bottle of Bacardi 

But all I can do is remember

Remember how i fell in love with your words

How I fell into those deep hazel eyes

I got lost in your smile

Hypnotized by your lips

Infatuated with your dark curls

Remember how I am ridiculously in love with a boy who live 1.168 miles away from me

I can't help but ache for him

For his touch, his love, his embrace

And even though I thought the liquor would silence the deafening thoughts of him

It didn't.

It only made them louder.

And I am in agony.

Reviews

[graystormeyes]

Your words are true and the emotions I could feel just by reading that was so real and powerful that I felt like I was living it.
I hope things get better. Alcohol isn't always the answer...but I guess sometimes it's the only company you can get sometimes.