Nights

Its 3 a.m and here you sit, urging yourself to stay strong, to not let the voices inside your head get to you. But how can you not?

Here you sit in the darkness, reminiscing about the old times, smiling along with the memories as you wipe the corners of your eyes.

Its 3.am and here you sit, in the silence of your walls.

With heavy eyelids, not wanting to sleep, in fear of facing another day.

Not wanting to wake up again, putting up a mask for the faces that you meet everyday.

But still when its 3.am and every memory comes rushing towards you head on,

when you live through every heart break and guilt again,

when you revisit the moment of looking at the mirror and hating yourself, hating every bit of the person you see staring back at you.

when you are stabbed with knives of the past,

when your walls shatter and wounds of glass pierce you,

when the words that made you bleed inside out get stuck up your mouth,

Thats when you finally let down, thats when you finally let yourself be seen,

Crying out in silence, screaming, writhing, hoping for help,

But no, you do not wish to be found, not like this.

Thought you lived through the nightmares of life, that it had come to an end,

but it still exists in the corners of your mind, with the insecurities in your heart,

Urging the voices that scream in your head.

Yet you go through everynight,brave and not fearless,

for one and the other are not the same.

Dropping dead after sunrise,

Temporarily indeed,

unfortunately.  

Reviews

[Samy B.]

"Unfortunately" Right on !

[Cobblestone Traveler]

Wow. This aching, pounding feeling so many know all too well. You captured the heavy emotion brilliantly. Living trapped inside your head with the memories and fears. Excellent piece.

[Coyote Poetry]

Honest, sad and powerful words and thoughts.
"Crying out in silence, screaming, writhing, hoping for help,
But no, you do not wish to be found, not like this. "
Many find the above place. Alone and waiting for nothing. Deep thoughts and strong description left something for the reader to think about. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote