To never Live

If I never lived...so common a thought that peirces everyone's mind with fierceness, even the most fearless"what if I was never born, and my friends were never scorn, what if i died now, then i wouldnt be restless"But in the confines of my mind, the sewers stretch so much deeper then a reckless thought therefore, I contemplated and once over premeditated this scenario that's more generic than store bought If i was never conceived, my parents would never have to grieve at the thought of a lost child but then they wouldnt have had the pride, that they could never hide when i graduated and they went wild andwhat if my sis didnt have me around to, always have my parents compare to, when i "seem" to be doing greatbut then who would be there, when the woman of hidden emotions DID share, in those deep talks we'd have really late if my bros didnt have me on their back, telling them how they "should" act, instead of letting them make there own decisions but who would give then that unconditional love, seeing them as pure as doves, even when our faults cause devastatingcolissions and to all my general friends, what if are friendship never began, then i wouldnt leave you misunderstood yet again, how could i pretend that there are too many other people willing to listen to their issues like i wouldve done more time for those special ladies, i never quite cherished like a perfect daisy, and could have done way better than me i still dont think its fair to even begin to compare the love with them i shared, that some women never get to see whatabout to this world that I roam, to many im unknown, what a waist of flesh and bone if i've done nothing to make it better I can honestly say, that through each and every day, I leave the world with a knowledge to blanket the coldness of ignorance, like a warm sweater so it only seems fair, even if u disagree (if u dare), that my presence has definately shown relevence, at least in my mind but the only thing that keeps me from this alternate reality, is the tick -tick -tick of time...~what would happen if u were gone?~