Texas Size Secret (Based on true events)A Story by Christina HillA restless teenage boy loses his way. Unbeknownst to him, many concerned townspeople put a plan together to get him back on course.Oct. 29, 1959, Thursday - Texas Size Secret By the time that Dr. Ben Thompson entered Hill Company, he had only one thing on his mind. He wanted an ice cold drink. Paul Hill kept a solid supply of soda pops in a rusty old refrigerator that was housed in the garage. There was a creaky wooden door separating the (window unit) air conditioned office and the brutally overheated, stuffy garage. If one lived through the high level of heat while walking to the far end of the garage in order to get to the refrigerator, well, then, that individual could help himself or herself to a cold refreshment. The garage area was barren except for the refrigerator, a box fan and a round wooden table with several mis-matched chairs. This space was used for unofficial political meetings whenever Mr. Hill saw fit to hold meetings. Well, this area was also an excellent place for poker games. Dr. Thompson did not even bother to say hello to his best friend. The tired veterinarian simply shuffled through the office carrying a scruffy looking cat. He was quickly positioned in front of the rusty ice box so fondly called, The Oasis. And there it was. The basic of basics. A glass bottle with those eight white letters written over a red stripe with a few happy numbers thrown in. A lovely Dr Pepper drink ! He used the bottle opener that was attached by two loose screws that protruded from the wall. After one sip, he believed that life could go again. He hardly noticed Gerald Anderson talking to Paul the first time that he walked through the office. But now, he could focus better. He saw that Gerald looked sad. And Paul looked agitated. In his frustration, Paul turned to the veterinarian. “Ben, listen to this, “ Paul said as he looked first at the doctor and then at the cat. “My sister is stirring up trouble, “ Paul said loudly. Then he mumbled to himself and said, “Of course, it is her job to do so. “
Paul’s sister, Pauline Martin, just happened to be his twin. And she just happened to work for Hill County. And Hill County just happened to be named after George Washington Hill. And that man just happened to be the great-grandfather of the twins. And even though her office was geographically fifty yards from Paul’s office, the twin’s lives were a world apart. And even though they had shared their mother’s womb 49 years ago, Paul and Pauline were completely opposite. It was as if destiny put the adult twins in the wrong buildings. Paul owned a one story unassuming building at 58 N. Elm street. He was a real estate man. The town and county courthouse was Pauline’s workplace. The courthouse was a three story building that entailed stately, intricate lines, markings and carvings. The trees and flowers surrounding the courthouse were tended to once a week. The whole package was a photographer’s dream. Pauline was a quiet person. She liked staying in the background. Paul was someone that everyone noticed. One might guess that he was the one that went in and out of the majestic courthouse all day long. However, a courthouse usually conjures up thoughts of abiding by the law. In that respect, Pauline was in the right building. She believed in rules, regulations and guidelines. She was a wonderful employee for the welfare department. Paul began to explain to Dr. Thompson that Gerald’s son was the center of the trouble that had started three weeks ago. Gerald’s son, Michael loved horses; so much so that he owned a horse of his own. You see, Michael Anderson was a country boy with a passion for riding. He was already a champion rodeo rider in the local circuit. He had so much love for riding that he decided to skip school here and there to go out to the stables on the edge of town and ride his horse. Well, here and there started adding up. The school had called the boy’s home many times to alert the mother. Both the mother and the father had taken charge of the situation but the boy would not cooperate. The timeline of warnings had run out and the school was forced to notify the county welfare office about Michael’s truancy. Paul went on with his explanation as if he were absolutely furious. “My sister has notified Gerald that his son has been truant from school to a severe extent. If it continues, Gerald will be held responsible. Gerald could even do jail time for this !” Paul barked. The distraught father turned to the doctor and said, “I really don’t see my son changing his ways. Sometimes kids don’t understand how serious some things are until it’s all over with.” The three men looked at each other. Gerald was teary-eyed by now as he said, “Here it is late October and Mike has butchered up the first half of the fall semester. I’m scared that he won’t even have enough senior course work to graduate in May at the rate he’s going.” Paul finally said, “I’m thinking.” Gerald stared straight ahead while Dr. Thompson sat down and tilted his chair backwards until the top, back edge of the chair touched the wall. The feline seemed to be the only creature in the office that was not worried about truancy, jail time or graduation. The unkempt cat closed his eyes and purred to himself. After about five minutes, Paul began to speak. “Well, now look. Your boy is 17 years old,” he said with a Texas twang. “He is restless. That’s no crime. And he is awfully good at rodeo riding. It’s obvious that he is building a nice future for himself because he has won plenty of rodeo competitions. Both Gerald and Dr. Thompson nodded their heads in agreement. “Well, hell,” said Paul. “I’ll take care of my sister. If she pays you a visit again, just be polite and let her say what she needs to say. I’ll fix things. Let your boy keep being a boy. I’ll fix things. It’ll take a few days but I’ll put things in motion so that everyone feels good again.” Gerald and Dr. Thompson knew that if Paul Hill said he would fix things, he would do just that. Although Gerald still looked worried, he also looked relieved. Paul hopped up out of his mahogany chair and went through the back door. Gerald stood up and even though he was tall, at this time, he looked small and defeated. When Paul returned, he had a Dr Pepper in his hand. “Here,” he said, as he handed it to Gerald. “It’s hot out there. Take this. Give me a week. I’ll fix this whole mess.” The advisor put his hand on the weary father’s shoulder and gave a kind squeeze. As Paul walked Gerald to the front door, Paul winked and said, “Give me a week.” And in one week, sure enough, the situation did get better. What words could really describe how and/or why it happened ? Leverage, influence, favors owed or a determined spirit that would not take “no” for an answer. The changes that occurred in Michael’s life had tap marks on them from Paul Hill’s dazzling but forceful magic wand. Michael was surprised when the school counselor insisted that the boy agree to a schedule change and accept a school job assignment. This assignment would replace Mike’s study hall slot. ( His new schedule would kick into place on Friday Nov. 6th) Additional coursework credit would be given if Mike agreed to the task. He would attend his morning classes as usual. But then at 11:05, he was to report to the school office. He was to personally help the principal deliver important papers, packages and books to a variety of classrooms. The principal’s suggestion to Michael was music to any bored student’s ears. The principal said, “Now these kinds of deliveries usually do not take too long at all, so if we finish early, you can go ahead and take your lunch break early. In other words, if you want to leave campus ahead of schedule, well, that would be just fine. It is typical that the deliveries are finished right around 11:30.” ( You see, there was a school wide lunch break from 12:00 to 1:00 every day. Students could be on campus or off campus. ) The wheels in Mike’s head started turning. The deliveries ended on the north end of the building. The bike rack was at the north end of the building. He could leave via his bike and jet over to the horse stables around 11:30. He would have tons of time to spend with his horse. He could get back to school just in time for his 1:00 class. It would be almost the same as when he was skipping classes. Michael mumbled to himself, “Why did my bad luck turn around and get good?” Another happy change occurred for Mike. It was with his history class. The teacher had made the announcement that the material on the Industrial Age had run itself out. So it would be necessary to jump into a different kind of history for the remainder of the semester. The history teacher, Mr. Richards, had made the choice to pick up with the subject of the Texas Rangers with an emphasis on their horses. And there was a third change that made Mike’s life easier. The history teacher had changed his roll call procedure just a bit. Instead of the usual starting direction from top to bottom, Mr. Richards was now starting at the bottom of the list when calling roll. He was starting with the letter Zz. This was probably the first time in Mike Anderson’s school life that he was not called first. What a relief ! Doug Zandt’s name was called first every day in history class. Each day, the teacher made his way slowly through the list of names. On a consistent basis, one could hear the running sound of penny loafers coming down the hall right at 1:00. Then there was always the sliding sound of those penny loafers on the classroom floor near the doorway. As the teacher called out, “Anderson, Michael. Are you here ?” Mike, who was always out of breath but who was officially in the doorway of the classroom, would struggle to answer, “Here sir !” Although Mike was tired each day at 1:00, he was enthusiastic about attending history class. He had confided in the teacher that he would never want to miss out on getting information on the Texas Rangers and their horses. Mike turned into one of the happiest teenagers living in Hillsboro. He couldn’t believe how easy his life had become. He was not arguing with his parents any longer about attending school or completing homework assignments. All of those tensions seemed to have gone away for some unknown reason. Mike noticed that many important men liked to stop Mike on the sidewalk and ask him questions about his rodeo riding. He liked the sudden attention he was getting. And then there was Mrs. Martin. It was always a pleasure to see her but there was one odd thing about WHERE he was seeing her. Lately, she was in the wrong place. Everyone knew that she worked at the courthouse, which was two blocks away. She was always standing on the corner of Elm Street and Church Street every single day around 11:30. Well, not every single day. Just Monday through Friday. And lately, the mayor was in the wrong place, too. He was often out on the sidewalk area of Abbott Street and Smith Street around 12:55 as Mike was making his last push to get back to school from the stables. The mayor always shouted out to Mike and said, “There you are ! Hillsboro’s favorite rodeo rider.” As nice as that was to get some happy attention from the leader of the town, Mike thought it was odd that the mayor was constantly standing at 200 N. Abbott Street. After all, that was the location of St. Mary’s Episcopal Church. The mayor did not belong there. Everyone knew he was a baptist ! “Well, maybe the mayor is holding meetings there,” Mike would mumble to himself. Mike did not spend too much time thinking about those sudden and odd changes. Michael felt like the adults in the town noticed him and liked him. What a pleasant thing ! He always thought that kids noticed kids and adults noticed adults. When did the adults start noticing him ? If he had not been so busy with all his tasks, he would have begun to question why he was getting positive attention out of the blue. He probably would have brought it up to a few of the adults that he was close to. But he was just too busy to really investigate if any of these changes meant anything in his world. “Who knows why I am getting noticed lately. I just know it feels very good to be on people’s good side,” he would mumble to himself. If Mike HAD gotten un-busy enough to investigate, he would have asked why the adults around him had a new and improved attitude toward him. He might have asked someone why his life suddenly started feeling smooth and easy. He might have tried to have someone explain why a person can suddenly become very, very lucky. If it had been allowed for open discussion, any number of people could have responded, “ I can tell you why !” Michael’s history teacher could have told him. Or his school principal or the vice principal. Certainly, the school secretary or the school counselor could have told him. The school board president or any 11 of the school board members could have told him. It could have been the school superintendent who could have provided information. There was always the police chief and his five police officers that had all the details. Mike’s mom or dad could have told him. The mayor knew, along with the horse stable manager. Sheriff Miller and his deputy knew. And certainly, Pauline Martin, the social worker knew. And let’s not forget that Mr. Paul Hill knew every detail of the whole well orchestrated plan. If it had been up for discussion, Mike would have been given an explanation. But Mr. Hill made sure that it was to be a well-kept secret . He had insisted on a code of silence. Mr. Hill had told the other adults involved that he wanted Mike to be left with a feeling, not a complicated spider web of thoughts. This would be the ending point of Mike’s childhood and he should not look back at his childhood and be disturbed by memories of adults and their lectures, explanations and solutions. When Paul Hill initially had his meeting in the garage area of his office behind closed doors with all 31 people, he said, “A FEELING that things worked out will be far better to have than of THOUGHTS of how a truancy mess got worked out. Feelings will benefit this boy more than thoughts, in this case. Most adults are haunted by embarrassing memories of something from childhood. I would like to protect Michael from being haunted in his later years. No one likes to bump into ghosts deep in the night. Who are we to cloud up the memories of his youth with the truth ! I know everyone here can understand that Michael is in a battle of temptation vs. obligation. And I am pretty sure that everyone here can understand why we do not need to fill this boy up with explanations of how wonderful and effective our rescue plan was. As he steps into his future, I do not want him to look back into the past and see us as having been the cavalry ! Michael should be left with a feeling of goodness or luck or freedom. Or maybe he will be left with having memorized the feeling of the soft wind on his face as he was riding his bike to and from the horse stables. Or maybe he will have memorized the sweet feeling of Rusty’s breath on his neck as he groomed Rusty, the horse, each day when he was having stable time instead of school cafeteria time. Better to have that memory than a memory of the townspeople breathing down his neck ! We really do not know what Mike will be left with once this school year ends. But sure as hell, he should not be left with negative thoughts of adults who rallied around his problem and put a plan together to save him from his own laziness. No child wants to be left with that. Let’s make sure he walks away from his last school year on a positive note. We must keep this whole thing a secret .” Paul stared at each person in the room. Then he demonstrated what he expected everyone to do when he put his hand in the air. “If you agree with me, put your hand in the air,” he said with the tone of a military man.
Michael enjoyed the next few months at Hillsboro High School. He graduated at the end of May with unremarkable grades. He was not swept away by academics. If he did not care about the subject matter, he simply let that information dissipate. He did, however, take some important book knowledge with him when he left high school. He carried with him only information that he valued. But he also carried something else. And he would carry that “something else” for the rest of his life. And yes, it would be a feeling. But there was more to it than just a feeling. It was an invisible layer of feelings that pressed on the teenager. But Mike would never be able to acknowledge, first and foremost, the basic feeling. So he certainly would never be able to acknowledge the second layer of the feeling. He would never be able to acknowledge that that basic feeling went right through him and turned itself into much more than a feeling.
The first feeling was truly classified as a physical feeling; a feeling that takes place inside the body like when a person smells cinnamon, for example. And the feeling was even an obvious emotion type feeling like when someone thinks of a glass of lemonade on a hot day. It was a feeling alright but it had turned sideways. In Michael’s world, that (physical and emotional) feeling had become a sensation. So the sensation was a second layer of a feeling.
And as powerful as that sensation was, Mike would never be able to pinpoint it. It would never be in the forefront of Mike’s mind. And that very sensation that Mike carried with him was a mystery to those around him because he never talked about it. But it would not have surprised anyone IF he had gotten clear headed enough to have expressed himself. Different people could have explained why that sensation meant something to him. Still, those people would have labeled it as “just a reaction type feeling.” Those people were older and wiser. Yes, for them, they would have referred to it as a feeling. Just one feeling. No layers. Just one feeling. And someone could have easily said, “So that is the feeling that you have been left with.”
Without him really comprehending it, the autumn air moved Mike in a profound way. For him, the autumn air was not just a chilly temperature. It was not just a sign that the seasons were changing. It was something that he could not detect, exactly. He just knew that the tingling cool air of autumn made him feel hopeful. Each year, right after Halloween, Mike had a feeling within every ounce of his being. There was some silent message that came to him each November. The message or the feeling was that life could get hectic and busy without turning burdensome. The month of November was always a happy time for him. Even Thanksgiving became his favorite holiday. Yet, he would never tap into the fact that autumn air was the starting point that pulled him into feeling powerful. With each season of autumn, the feeling of goodness and power was reinforced. Mike got consumed by horse riding and rodeo competitions. He got picked up by a sponsor out of Ft. Worth. He lived in a boarding house with other young riders. The autumn season was the main time that he and his fellow riders practiced with their horses. Mike’s specialty had become barrel racing. He and his horse, Rusty, were unusually fast ! When people would ask Mike how practice was going, he always said that he felt good. Without him understanding what was really happening to him, the autumn air was working its spiritual magic on the young cowboy. The autumn air gave Mike the feeling that winning was possible. He was always optimistic in the fall. He would never know how much the seasonal air perpetrated itself inside his world. The November air somehow told Mike that life was manageable. Paul Hill would never know that the feeling that Mike had been left with was a childlike and innocent bliss that had been permanently woven into the autumn air. And Mike would never know that inside the autumn air, there had been a multitude of decent people who had bent some very important rules just to rescue him when he was restless, lost and defiant. But they had not just rescued him. They had also gathered up and forever preserved and handed him a feeling. And what a feeling it was; a mixture of freedom, happiness and protection wrapped into one feeling that would forever float and be the touch and the smell of the autumn air of Central Texas. There would be plenty of times in Michael’s life when he would feel burdened and imprisoned but the autumn would not be one of those times. The autumn would forever be a season or specific time when he felt whole and in an idyllic emotional place. Ironically enough, it would forever be a touch (of air) that allowed him to be untouched by the world.
If it had been allowed; if there had been permission to discuss it and if Michael had been more in tune with the psychology of both life and emotions, he would have asked someone. And someone in his hometown could have told him. Someone could have told him that the autumn air was reminding him of a gift, an answer, a solution, a plan. It had been a guaranteed rescue plan to anchor one of their own from drifting off course. If it had been up for discussion, Michael would have finally understood the peculiar sensation that moved him as the autumn leaves were falling. But it was a secret. And what a beautiful secret it was; all in order to fix a young man’s life as the autumn air was stirring in Hillsboro in 1959. © 2021 Christina HillReviews
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AuthorChristina HillSan Francisco , CAAboutI am a school teacher who grew up in Texas. I now live in San Francisco. more..Writing
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