I Know Better Now

(2009. Revised)

It hurts so bad
Why did she do this to me
I thought she was my friend
But she lied, right to my face
She took my heart and broke it in to a million pieces 
And each piece a thousand

tiny

fractures.

I want to yell 
I want to scream
I know I can't 
But this feeling inside of me
Bubbling up from deep within
I just can't hold all these emotions in
At home its hard, and worse at school
I try to be happy but it doesn't feel right
To pretend with a dented heart

Everything is broken
And won't mend by itself
She did this to me but I have to be strong
Life continues, I need to move on
I'll stitch up the rips and tears in my heart
But then she pulls me back and hurts me once more
Stripping my stiching out one by one
Why did I fall for her same 

old 

tricks
But now I know better and it won't happen again
I got up the courage and shut her out
She won't control my life any more
I have the power to choose the road I take
To a place where she can't find me again
For this is my life
But one thing she taught me
Is that the love i give away
Is something special to me
So in the future, I will be wise
And give my love to the one
Who will treasure it always 
And not throw it in the dirt