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written down when all i was feeling was guilt for something i hadn't done. no rhyme scheme, just words.

just stop.
stop everything i've become
just make the blows less painful
just make this part go faster
just make this heartbeat stop.
help
help me not to think anymore
or kill
kill me faster now
cause the pain
is just too much to bare.
my back is breaking now
but all you do is stare.
my hatred knows no end
you pushed me to the edge.
i wish
i could just be more like her
my jealousy
overcomes any sense of self i had.

Author's Note

i know it makes hardly any sense... i was honestly just sick of myself when i wrote this.