Finding You.....

A Poem by ~ Twilight~

I looked for u..

in my hope and depair
in my courage and fear

in my knowns and un-knowns
in my gots and gones

in my faiths and shakes
in my bonds and breakes

in my pursuits and withdrawals
in my climbs and falls

in my idols and Gods
in my no's and nods

in my dementias and contemplations
in my bounts and deprivations

in the hardening of heart
in the melting of soul
in the agony of splinters
in the poise of whole

in the whirls of profanity
in the ardent circulations
in plight ,in asserted defiance
in gentle bows ,in estetic prostrations

in dispersion of colours
in collection of light
in blindness of desire
in sensation of bright

in innocence of new-born
in imprints of age
in uncertanity of time
in loneliness of space

in satan's intriguing whispers
in vodkas,and in rolling dices
in sobbing cofessions at church
in consoling numinous voices

in agony of chirping mind
in calm of ardent soul
in oasis of blooming temptations
in bends,straights,lybrinths and roll

in moments of humble pride
in hours of timid disdain
in days of sweet turmoil
in years of kindling pain

in veils that were never lifted
in tales that were never told
in truths that were never complete
in mirrors that were never behold

in erratic beat of blazing heart
in hazy dawns and dark descends
there was no facile elusion from u
from a lesser inception to a larger end