Am I?

i hate being in this state of mind....

am i alive

am i still breathing

it seems i've lost the feeling

of reality

i've lost hold of my senses

none of this feels real

none of it seems like my life

for once i am with you

i have no reason to fear

i am so happy to be by your side

but then i remembered

everytime i am really happy

something ends up goin wrong

so i'll try to stay happy

because i love to see you smile

i don't want you to worry about me

but as they say

if there was nothing wrong

then there would be nothing right

so am i breathing

am i really alive

are we ment to me

or is it all a lie

 

Author's Note

please comment tell me of any thoughts