Abandoned

A poem about growing up feeling abandoned

Abandoned

 

When I least expected change,

You abandoned me

 

You left me alone…

Discarded...stuck with strangers…

Constantly leaving me in danger…

 

I was scared…

I was lonely…

I felt duped over and over

 

Embarrassed to be repeatedly

Kicked to the curb

 

I was enraged…

Frustrated at your

Lack of respect for me

 

Now it’s hard for me to trust

 

So difficult for me to

Let go of people and things

 

If someone walks away

 I want desperately to chase after them

 

Saying goodbye…

Is next to impossible for me!

 

My life’s constantly in turmoil for my

Fear of abandonment

 

When you leave me…

I feel so sad

 

If you to hang-up the phone…

I feel so alone

 

I’m always stuck feeling abandoned…

Or smothered

 

All because of

How you conditioned me,

 Mother!

 

Author's Note

Trying to deal with my abandonment issues as an adult. Changing that part of me is hard to do. Maybe writing this poem will help me heal.

Reviews

[Thea]

Aw...The ending was such a shocker...Being abandoned just hurts a lot especially when it is your mother who did it to you...You crafted the emotions here greatly...Well done, Marie!
:)))

[Becky C Strukamp]

I wasnt expecting it to be your mom, as I could certainly relate to this in relationships with me, but I got to thinking...I guess I do have some of thoes issues with my mom and it conditioned to think as I do today...one of her favorite phrases was, "do what ever your husband tells you to do, its your job" I wonder, did I ever really recover from that thought process.
Excellent Poem Marie.

[Kenneth The Poet]

Nice work, at first I thought this read like a letter to a significant other, but the twist at the end really made it for me.

Powerful work!

[Matt "Mickey" Denney]

You convey your emotions quite well. :) Good job.

[Kaa Na Kalyanasundaram]

good writing

[tynamite]

I like how this is expressed.