Abandoned

A poem about growing up feeling abandoned

Abandoned

 

When I least expected change,

You abandoned me

 

You left me alone…

Discarded...stuck with strangers…

Constantly leaving me in danger…

 

I was scared…

I was lonely…

I felt duped over and over

 

Embarrassed to be repeatedly

Kicked to the curb

 

I was enraged…

Frustrated at your

Lack of respect for me

 

Now it’s hard for me to trust

 

So difficult for me to

Let go of people and things

 

If someone walks away

 I want desperately to chase after them

 

Saying goodbye…

Is next to impossible for me!

 

My life’s constantly in turmoil for my

Fear of abandonment

 

When you leave me…

I feel so sad

 

If you to hang-up the phone…

I feel so alone

 

I’m always stuck feeling abandoned…

Or smothered

 

All because of

How you conditioned me,

 Mother!

 

Author's Note

Trying to deal with my abandonment issues as an adult. Changing that part of me is hard to do. Maybe writing this poem will help me heal.

Reviews

[Zahra]

Very nicely expressed ....

[stephen dillon]

fabulous

[Light and ashes]

Its been a long time since I last read you. I relate to this alot, wonderful poem.

[Alicia Schroeder]

I can totally relate to this peice.. It is wonderfully expressed and a fabulous write :)

[~Princess~]

Wow so deep but yet so true. It brought back memories of my child hood and though I know I am only 18 a lot went on that no one knows. Wow great wording and your poem is perfect like your wording. :)

[jw]

I was very touched by your poem. I hope you find healing.
You have some good images in your poem but the last line says it all. It made me say WOW! I can relate to that.

[A]

I loved how you conveyed the receiver at the last line, it was unexpected..
Writing shall help us deal with our issues, keep writing, and you will heal someday
Good write

[Mauricio Montoya]

Writing does help and you’ve done a great job in bringing all that in this piece.

[Jibey]

A neat surprise at the end... a twist that grabs at your guts when you want to fly above the pain...

[Poetic Beauty]

It saddens me when mothers dont live up to what they should be. They should be comfort and love. Kindness and guidance. They should love unconditionally but the reality is that many mothers are nothing more the selfish women. This shows how it can cause turmoil later on in life.