Quest for inner light

When I woke up today I felt as if a huge burden off my shoulders. The burden I have been carrying for years. I Woke up with a feeling how peaceful life is and how beautiful it is to be me, to be a human. I never felt like this before. The only thing I was worried about was getting up and getting ready for office. I remember the nights I fall asleep crying, remember all the unnecessary worries about the future. How stupid it is that we often forget to live our present because we are too attached to our past and too careful about future. I want to go somewhere beach side sit there in sand acknowledging the sound of waves, the sound that trees makes while talking to wind, the innocence of kids. I want to be surrounded by all the positive energies, energies we drag from nature. I want to close my eyes and face the sun and then feel the God inside me, feel the truth, feel the warmth and care, feel the Light and leaving all the darkness aside.
Someone just told me you have got to love yourself, you have to let yourself be what you want to be. I see what she meant now. It's so true you will never be happy if you are not at peace and for peace you need to stop worrying what others want from you. You have got to stop being an approval seeker, you have to stop changing your self for others and more over rise above hatred. Being positive is all that can make you feel the happiness around you. Not the feeling of love or feeling of belonging to someone or owing to someone. You owe that much to your soul which have been carrying all the burdens of past lives or this life. You have the responsibility not to trouble it at least in this soul. You need to be aware of the real meaning of life. Remember awareness can lead to 2 different places: clarity or confusion. When you become more aware of what you need in life and you clearly go for it, you find clarity. Resistance however leads to confusion. Whenever you are confused, respect yourself and process of working through it by staying with confusion until you experience a slight shift. Talk rarely accomplishes anything, being with yourself more consciously is whats required. So just close your eyes and imagine you are watching yourself smile. Love yourself be greatful for what you have, get over with what you don’t have and try hard to get what you want to achieve.

Reviews

[Marianne Rose]

Beautiful, multi-layered message. I hope many people read this and learn from your inspired words. I can feel the shift in you as you describe it, then as you begin to be released enough to write the message many are meant to hear. Your thoughts are universal and needed right now. The teaching is needed right now. Thank you for sharing this wonderful reflection.

[Chhawi]

Thanks Marriane!! :)