Hiding From You

There's nothing I can do..

Nothing I can say..

To make all your torture

just go away.

I don't tell you.

I don't want you to know.

But I blame myself.

Yet I continue to not let it show.

I want you to ignore this.

I want you to be free.

After all,

I want no suffering to be brought about by me.

The bullets, however,

do not stop.

The pain does not subside.

For I truly know that I blame myself.

and this I still must hide.

Striking me when the sun's rays escape this world.

I lose my balance

when all I ever wanted to do

was just turn around and be strong enough

strong enough to save you.