Missing Out on Life

What I'm feeling... what I'm going through... 2/10/10

Me.

 

Them.

 

Everything.

 

Life.

 

I’ve been missing out.

 

In truth, I’m jealous.

 

I know I shouldn’t be. I should be happy with what I got.

 

But I can’t help but feel the way I feel.

 

I feel lost.

 

Confused.

 

Alone.

 

Coming back, after five years.

 

I wish I never had left.

 

All the bonds I could have had, but don’t.

 

What if?

 

What if I hadn’t gone away?

 

What if?

 

Maybe I would’ve had more friends.

 

What if?

 

Maybe I could’ve grown up with my cousins.

 

What if?

 

Maybe my parents would’ve split.

 

What if?

 

But.

 

I think I’m content.

 

Even if my friends might not like me.

 

          Even if I didn’t grow up with my cousins.

 

Even if our family is split right now.

 

I know.

 

I know I’ll make friends in time.

 

I know I can still grow old with my cousins.

 

I know our family will be whole soon.

 

I know.

 

So maybe, I’m starting to get back into…life. Again.

Author's Note

So yeah. This is a view of what I have been feeling lately. I feel so... lonely.

Reviews

[TopHatGirl]

W00T go songy! finally posted a poem! Okay, so I like this poem, but it's a bit choppy. Doesn't flow smoothly. Example:
What if?



But.



I think I’m content. --Thats a good sentence, but it feels awkward right there. Maybe, "I think I'm satisfied with what I have" would be better? I don't know. Keep working!