![]() 3's a Crowd?A Story by turtle![]() a short story about a girl and her two lovers and what kind of person she has become because of her relationships with these two desirable men.![]() Theme: 3’s a crowd ? He’s sweet, innocent, weird, and cute, loves me to death and
would do anything for me. He’s everything that I could want in a guy but yet there’s
that certain quality that he lacks like. There’s something he is missing that
would turn him into the complete package. Wait I think I know what it is,
intimacy. Our personal relationship use to be on a high at one time but now I feel
like I don’t want to touch him or I don’t want him to touch me. I love to
cuddle and lay down with him because he’s so comfortable to lie with but
anything further than that is a big no! Why am I feeling this way? Why wouldn’t
I want my boyfriend to touch and love on me the way he used too? What’s wrong
with me? Do I not want him as a boyfriend anymore? Or is it somebody else? All these
questions run through my head and I can’t seem to find the right answers for
them. Wait, wait, and wait for real this
time I think I know what it is again. I think it’s because I haven’t been the
most honest person to him. Every day I live with this guilt of not confessing
my lies to him especially when I had the chance to do so. I backed out of
saying the truth but only to spare his feelings and our relationship. I know it
may sound selfish because if I really cared about our relationship then I would
have never put our relationship in jeopardy of falling apart. Which bring me to
my first semester of college. It was my
first year of college and I planned to dorm on campus so I wasn’t going to see John as much as I use to. Mind you we were together 24/7 because we went to the same
high school. We would meet in the mornings, in between classes, after school,
then we would walk home together and he would hang out at my house until it was
time for him to go home. That was our daily routine. That was our life. It was
filled with pure innocence, congruence, love, and laughter. Our relationship use to be fun and exciting
now and days we both get annoyed so easily and are so quick to walk away from
the relationship. It’s like we don’t really care enough to keep it going. Its honestly
emotionally and physically draining. I mean look at me now compared to how I use
to look. I use to be that girl that every guy wanted to be with and the girl
that u wanted to look like. I had this fabulous physique with presence of
confidence and grace that I carried with me. I was mesmerizing and no matter
how shy I was, you will remember me. Those were the days when life was great
and our relationship was taking a turn for the better. But little ol stupid
curious me wanted to experience the “college life” and sold myself completely short
in the long run. After being in a relationship for 2 years you start to wonder
well what else is out there and you always imagined what your life would be
like if that special person wasn’t in your life. That’s how I was beginning to
feel, like I wanted to just take some time from our relationship just to experience
new people in hopes that we would eventually get back together because at the
time I wasn’t ready to be in a committed relationship. So I did my dirt and I kissed
a few guys, had some intercourse with some and was living care free but not realizing
that someone had to get hurt somewhere along the line. John was a great boyfriend
he would constantly call to check up on me. He would genuinely love to just
talk to me and I could feel how happy he would be and just to see how much I had
a good a*s boyfriend that I didn’t deserve. All he ever did was do right by me
but I couldn’t even do that for him. Well in the beginning of our relationship I
was. I was the perfect girlfriend to him and I made sure of that. But me
wanting to seek out other ventures, yea all of that changed. I remember that
one time I came back to school from my winter break and we left on such great
terms. We celebrated our anniversary together, brought gifts for each other
just a good overall break. Then I came back to school and blocked him from
calling me for three weeks straight. At the time I felt like I wasn’t doing
anything that was a big deal. I mean I knew he was going to be upset that I did
that to him but I figured he’ll just get over it. So I continued my rebel behavior
and would block him and unblock him whenever I wanted. I wouldn’t pick up his
phone calls and would constantly ask for 2 week breaks just so that I wouldn’t have
to worry about him calling me and me having to not answer it. I was just doing
me and like I said at the time I thought that kind of behavior was acceptable
because I always got away with my antics. So the first boy that I ventured out
to was introduced to me by my best friend. She was talking to this guy who had
a best friend that was single and she wanted to tag along to double date with
her. You know like being a wing man but in this case a wing woman yea that I was.
So I knew that that was something that I shouldn’t have done because I was in a
relationship with John. But against my better judgment, I still entertained
him. At first I thought he was very ugly and wanted nothing to do with him so I
cat fished him. I sent him pictures of someone else just messing with him I wasn’t
going to keep that lie up for long it’s was just for fun but he eventually found
out it wasn’t me so then I sent him a pic of me and then it went from texting
to facetiming. And the more we facetimed the more I was beginning to like his personality.
So I got passed his looks and just started enjoying him for him. His name was Rich a really great guy who knew me for me. At a certain point I felt that maybe he
knew me better than the person that I have been with for almost three years. He
knew what I liked he knew what I was thinking and how I was feeling. He would
come home with stuff for me that I didn’t even have to ask him to bring he was
just that thoughtful. He would do literally anything for me but at the time I just
wanted sex. The way we would do it, it was passionate and fulfilling that I was
willing to risk losing Chris to be with him. So I did just that. I eventually
left Johnathan and had no regrets about it but always put it in the back of my mind
that we would end up together in the future. So I went on to be with Rich and
it was great I then love out simple life that we had. He went to work I went to
school we would meet up on Thursday and spend the entire weekend together. We had
a system that worked and we both loved how the relationship was moving so far. He
was a very generous man that just new how to take care of me. And I loved every
moment of being with him but I knew that I couldn’t see myself with him future
wise so I knew that our nice little fairy tale was going to come to an end. Or
did it ever end? © 2017 turtleAuthor's Note
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