Jaded

I am still wondering around, lost in the lunacy of my time. 
Left roaming this place...I only stopped once to pay for your crime. 
I saw no justice only your faults and it brought me to my knees... 
How could you leave me here with all the debt of your greed? 
I should stop asking questions they only bring me pain. 
Without you here, I know why you left...you had nothing else to gain. 
My thoughts become my company, so that I am not so alone. 
My heart has withered away now, but my mind has swiftly grown... 
to take its place and fill all of me. I have become so self assured. 
I could be sad about the loss of love, but I am just glad that I do not need you anymore. 
Still no one could ever take your place, I will not let anyone else in. 
Once in a life time is enough...I will never do that again. 
They say to have loved and lost is better than to have never loved at all... 
I say they are all liars and they do not grasp what it is to truly fall... 
How it feels to hit the ground so hard you do not even want to get back up, 
How it feels to know the truth that you will never have the one you love. 
They are such fools, but I envy there blind eyes... 
You see I can not mask my vision no matter how hard I try. 
I would if I could, I would become a fool just like them... 
I would hope, pray, and cherish the fact that I may love again... 
but I am so jaded, rough around the edges to say the least. 
Truth is I am rough on the inside, because you never needed me. 
I was just a pawn of yours or someone to bear your cross... 
someone that you held and assured but never even cared if you lost. 
My friendship meant nothing to you and my heart meant even less. 
Just left to roam the waist lands of you latest and greatest mess. 
I am still wondering around, lost in the lunacy of my time... 
I still stagger forward, only stopped once to pay for your crime.