My world

It is a life unlike reality...

hiding just this side of wrong,

when I see it right in front of me...

blink my eyes and then it is gone.

When you know it can not be real.

Somethings just do not exist...

push against the stark contrast,

and deny everything that it is...

but that does not make it go away,

it just pushes me right back...

screaming all of its lies at me,

taking all the rationality that I had.

Can anyone see the hell,

that I walk through every day?

I just need to get out...

but the monsters make me stay.

They have stopped hiding in the shadows.

They have taken all my rights and made them wrong.

They turned my whole world upside down...

and you expect me to be strong?

I fear it may be stronger than me,

something I am not sure is real...

something you can not even see...

something i cant help but feel.

You can not deny a reality...

that stands boldly in front of you...

only search the faces of those around,

to confirm that they don't see it to.

You can not run away from monsters...

that hold up inside your mind,

and you can not put to rest the fear...

that you may be running out of time.

It is a manifestation of my darkest fears,

and it is so much bigger than me.

Taunting with the realization...

that I am not the only one it sees.

It looks at those I love...

with pure hatred in its eyes.

It wants to take there place...

and be the only thing that is mine.

Reviews

[MerylDivya]

jessica i i were a man i'd propose to you

[Jessica Lynn Polley]

And I would say yes!!! Thank you so much.

[Ian Gilmour]

The concluding line opens the discussion for a horrifying debate: is the only way to defeat monsters to become a monster yourself? The emotion of the poem jumps off the page and that's where it draws strength. I think if you're monsters read this poem, they'd take some time off. Well done!

[Rene Salinas]

Today things seem to be topical and they unite ammusingly enough i was just brushing up on Chess that it has had some impact on my life came across Bobby Fischer's quotes and aside from his contversial stand on life which is not for me to comment I came across a quote that went "Chess keeps my insanity sane" and to that extent juxtaposed agressively onto your poem. It seems that although you walk in the fringes and it might be cold and dark unnerving even you are still up for more and the fear seems all but too enticing. As I read through that kept it lively and invigorating:
"Everything It says to me, Takes me one step closer to the edge' And I'm about to break.

Thankyou so much Jessica

[Frontier]

"When you know it can not be real.
Somethings just do not exist...
push against the stark contrast,
and deny everything that it is...

but that does not make it go away,
it just pushes me right back...
screaming all of its lies at me,
taking all the rationality that I had." - this captured that feeling of being trapped in darkness so well. It does make one's world seem irrational, leaving one not knowing where to go.

And wow,that last stanza, incredibly dark....filled with horror, how our fears can make "evil" thoughts race through our minds and its like a demon is there.

Great job!

[cartera]

It,is called The Hegemony.
Good piece that teeters on the brink of paranoia but contains enough familiar insights to most readers.
The anxious tone was well maintained.

[Jessica Lynn Polley]

Thank you, it is hard to write a poem that sits just on the brink of madness without it sounding like the ramblings of a mad woman. I was concerned it was a little to off kilter but you review helped to reassure it was not.