Untouch me

If I could I would take it all back...

rid myself of all of these scars,

kill all of the regrets that I have,

and mend my mangled heart.

If I could I would forget you,

erase all the memories that haunt me.

I would do anything I could do,

to finally be free.

Still everyday I break a little,

and I cant make ti stop.

I keep forgetting what I fight for...

when I am here and you are not.

My heart screams for me to surrender,

but my body will not lye down,

and I know I will not live forever..

so I have to stop this now. 

If I could I would punish you...

make you feel just as dirty as me!

I would do anything I could do,

to finally be free.

I am still chained to the ground,

and you threw the only key away.

I am still lost when your not around,

and I could not make you stay.

If I could I would stop crying...

I would not shed a single tear for you,

because in my head you are still lying...

after all you have put me through.

You left me bruised and broken.

You left me with you regrets.

You left me still not knowing,

but still sure that you knew best.

A child stuck in the past...

will I ever be more than this?

Will I ever get my heart back,

or is this really all that there is?

i have so many questions weighing me down...

so many things that I want to say...

So little reason for existing,

in this broken place.

If I could I would forgive you,

and then I would forgive me...

I would do anything I could do,

to finally be fee.