Words

Why do the words evade me when I have something to say? 
Why do they refuse to see me? Why do they run away? 
I do not want to fight in this battle anymore, I do not care who wins this war! 
I no longer see the point, I don't even know what i'm fighting for. 
But all of these thoughts race inside my mind, and they leave me so confused. 
Sent to clear all the smoke, leaving something bent and bruised. 
But I still see no meaning... nothing to justify the fall. 
Left alone with my words that now make no sense at all. 

I have tried so hard to fix everything...but there is still so much left. 
Broken thoughts and jumbled words bleed a constant pain into my head. 
It never seems quite right all these things that manage to come out... 
the screaming meaning in my mind falls flat inside of my mouth. 
I could never quite convey to you the world that I see! 
Or all of the raging battles somewhere deep inside of me. 
I feel pain that is not mine, and I am trying so hard to understand... 
why we all do this to ourselves, when we have it all right in our hands! 

I just can not make sense of this, no matter how hard I try. 
Can anyone see the words that are still stuck inside my mind? 
I want so badly for just one person, just one person to understand, 
Everything that I feel, and everything that I am... 
because all of these thoughts race inside my mind, and they leave me so confused. 
Sent to clear all the smoke, leaving something bent and bruised. 
But I still see no meaning... nothing to justify the fall. 
Left alone with my words that now make no sense at all.