Some pleasure with my pain.

I want to express to you the need that burns inside.

The want to do something different, and the inability to hide.

My minds is always racing, and my thoughts are split into two.

A part of me wants to leave, and a part of me is glued.

So many things tie me here, I wish I could throw them all away.

Sometimes I think I would sacrifice everything, If I did not have to stay.

Contentness has always evaded me, I cant stick with one thing for very long,

therefore you are driving me crazy, and this whole thing feels wrong.

I want to play games I shouldn't, and I am in an altered state of mind.

I want to do all the dirty things, with someone who is not even mine.

I want to get into trouble, and I want to do it now!

I want it to touch every part of me, in every way that you dont know how.

I want the lust and the passion, I want some pleasure with my pain.

I want to surround myself with the heat of it, and let the freedom just reign.

I want to take home a stranger, I want to put him on my shelf.

I don't want to know anything about him, I just want him for myself.

When you face me I love you, but when you turn around I don't.

I simply cant understand it, or maybe I just wont.

I am broken and unsteady filled with blemishes and cracks.

I want to fill them with danger and everything else that you lack.

I don't want to hurt you, but I don't know if I can stop.

I don't want to loose you, but your not all I want.

I don't think I am made for this world, and all its straight and narrow ways.

I feel different and unclean with all the games I play.

I am lustful, prideful, broken, and unafraid.

I want to take every opportunity, I want to take it in every way.

I will not deny you because I love you the most.

But I can not ignore myself much longer, for us there is no hope.