My Crutch

I am laying here in a dark place,

and I can see the pain in the walls.

For I am sure this is where,

the world watches its weakest fall.

Why am I at this place,

and when did I loose control?

At what point was it decided,

that the world can take its toll?

Where did I loose myself?

Why can't I fell it anymore?

That worm kind of feeling,

telling me I have something good in store.

I thought I was strong,

you know I used to be so proud,

but then I saw that crutch

as it screamed to me so loud.

I decided to let myself lean,

On a temporary fix.

You know I had myself convinced,

that I didn't need any of it.

That is when it started to grow,

from a hunger to a need.

I forgot all about temporary,

and saw only my greed.

I was willing to accept every loss,

still thinking there was something to gain.

I just needed to chase the high,

it was the only thing that made me sain.

Everything was so amazing,

and the world looked so beautiful to me.

Then that is when I realized,

all the fake that I could see.

Everything was sugar coated,

and as that coat started to melt.

I saw everything I loved,

turn into something else.

I caused so much pain,

but I never realized.

How much I took from everyone,

until I had no where to hide.

Temporary is temporary,

and now that I have forgotten how to stand.

My crutch is taken away...

and look at where I land.

 

I am laying here in a dark place,

and I can see the pain in the walls.

For I am sure this is where, 

the world watches its weakest fall.