Sit pretty

I skim right through the fairy tails straight on to the bitter end. 
And while acceptance is not my only thought it it mine to defend. 
Though I may never be your biggest risk I am still worth my weight in gold... 
because a story told in a thousand ways was never really told. 
You see everyone has there answers but to thy own self be true... 
Because to deflect the lies around me I must send them right back to you. 
So protective I have become reflective on everything accept my thoughts... 
As long as you can not get me I do not care if I rot. 
What is left may not be pretty but it is sacred and I call it mine. 
The possession is my obsession as I loose all track of time. 
The years flood me with regrets and the regrets drown out the noise... 
Forming some sick sense of peace where these thoughts become my toys. 
I always play for keeps and I do not know where to stop... 
I own nothing but nothing owns me and this is the loop in which I am caught. 
I can not escape the truth yet I can not out run the lies... 
I can not stand the chance to loose so I really rather not try. 
I will not take this sitting down but at some point I forgot how to stand... 
I do not like anything about you but I like even less what I am. 
Fueled by a strong need I must find some reason to this rhyme... 
Fueled by a strong need I must find a way to protect what is mine. 
Fueled by a strong greed I wont let anyone get to close... 
Needing fuel because I am a weak thing I would really like to take you home. 
It was you who begged to differ...who tried to tell me I am not fake. 
and the solace I found in your words was my biggest mistake... 
I started the dread this nightmare look at what I have done... 
I started to hate myself more than I have ever hated anyone. 
Because I skipped right through the fairy tails straight to the bitter end. 
And while acceptance is not my only thought It is mine to defend.

Reviews

[Jake Donald Stephens]

I like this. Very real feelings, and strongly put together.
Sorry I'm not the best at reviewing poems. :(
But I can tell you that I get way more meaning from yours than from most. :)

[Jessica Lynn Polley]

Thanks so much...and anything you have to say is helpful.