Reality

Just some stuff I wrote and decided to share since it's been forever!

I try to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart left crumbled on the ground but defeat starts to set into my mind. Emptiness is a feeling all too familiar as I lay here and contemplate what the rest of my life without love would feel like. Nearly two years have passed and women come and go... not one has chosen to stay and accept the love I have to give. On the other hand, maybe they see that this heart is empty and while I lay here believing in what I have to offer, the women of the past see that there's nothing left. No love, no compassion and no reason to love me. I lay alone without a tear in my eye, without an ache in my heart. Yet, I caress a crack in my soul as the pain and hurt from life without love is beyond affecting the body I reside in. It's much deeper than that now. It's taking a slow, torturing toll on my soul that will last eternity. An emptiness and loneliness that bruises the very thought of my own existence to a point of feeling completely gone from life as we know. Yet, I stop to think that it's still just me laying alone in this bed. At least I have me.

Author's Note

Doesn't really fit a category but I have all these things I've written and haven't shared... decided to share this piece that I wrote in bed last night.

Reviews

[andrew mitchell]

An interesting write caught between an itch you cannot scratch, a hunger that won't go away and maybe just maybe,slow down and let love come to you, its all about being out there socially and something happens when you least expect it. apart from that i feel your pain. Hi Aaron hope all is well.

[KWP]

itchy scratchy - give me a burger type philosophy ?

[KWP]

as my boys would say ... what a nugget!!! :D

[andrew mitchell]

are you mocking my reviews kwp.:)

[KWP]

no way ... I was just hoping for a full meal ... LOVE X

[AaronFreitas]

It definitely does have a way of creeping up on you when you least expect it! I blame it on the colder weather :) I appreciate your response buddy and all has been well... just out living and experiencing life and hoping the urge to write and share comes more often :)

[Saruwa]

This is good Aaron. Thanks for being honest with us. I've written many pieces based on feelings just like these. It gets better. Great piece.

[Ruth]

As painful as this is to read Aaron, it is nice to read you today :) Those moments seem infinite at times but there is always the nagging voice inside the heart that reminds you that you still have you, a reason to keep turning corners right there my friend :)

[Pushkar Prabhat]

first of all.........glad to read you again.
its sad..........i can relate to it........m not in a great place either.......so i am not gonna say that it gets better..........but, i will say this, hold on........till its gets better.......
you have the right kind of attitude.......you have got yourself, and almost always.......that is enough.
good luck man!
keep writing......
this was great!
:)

[Cassie]

This is so descriptive Aaron, its been a long time and am sure you already got a lady who accepted that love that you had to offer

[Devious13]

thats all that matters and you sharing them is appreciated , stay on it and dont hold back , its a good start and only gets better with time , I have been there so I can relate to your pain

[Meraki]

I won't offer the clichè words of what may come. But I will say, this pain isn't for naught don't be in such a rush to give others love, but instead give yourself the love you wish to give others. It's still clichè but you'll get everything you deserve eventually. It's a romantically sad piece, and wonderfully written. I love taking a walk in someone else's consciousness, the thoughts they think late at night. the one's that keep them up at night, the one's they spend hours contemplating the ones that flit through their mind gone as fast as they came. Just to understand their struggles and take a glimpse of the world through their eyes. If only for a moment that is all I ask. Thank you

[wordman]

but one day she will come along and rock your world,no more tears,no more being alone

[Riley Justine]

Awesome piece! The emotion really comes through in this!

[Bear]

Nice paragraph, you could easily expand on this listing the events and reasons behind the strong emotions you have mentioned. Masterfully written. I can feel the agony in your words, it even forced me to search my own soul and reflect on my losses that have left me to feel the loneleness of time. Very powerful my friend, five out of five Clap! Clap! Clap! Clap! Clap!

[E G TEN]

Love is a many splendid thing, at least you have you.
I missed your writings old friend, much obliged
For your artistic views. Thanks EG.;)

[AaronFreitas]

Thanks E G.. I've been kind of distant from the site.. no particular reason. I spent time really working on myself and doing the whole loving myself thing and just living life. I have some writing.. actually some songs that I've written and play on my guitar. I'm getting more in the mood to sit and express so hopefully some more to come my friend. Always appreciate your support :)