What a day

No structure no format no organization... just a rough day as I looked back through pictures and saw myself at so many phases in life.

What a day as I sit and reflect 

On pictures from the past

Moments in time loaded

With happiness and smiles

If life could have only been that good forever

But forever is just an illusion

And everything eventually crumbles apart

At least that is the way my life has been

Everything I have ever loved has

Either let me down or has broken into 

Millions of pieces and all I am left with 

Are pictures to remind me of how happy

I was once upon a time. 

If life could have only been that good forever. 

Tears fall from my eyes just seeing my smile

In some of these pictures, a time when the future

Of life only seemed bright and loaded with promise.  

I guess a picture of myself today would reflect 

A vision of lost hope, fear and worry… 

Still battling daily to find who I am….

What does the future hold now?

What is the picture of tomorrow going to look like?

Author's Note

One of those days... put a few pics to show what I am looking at... everything from childhood pics to last week.

Reviews

[ExquisiteEyes]

I think the poems that have no structure can convey the emotions in raw form. In this poem, as you have said, it reflects how chaotic your mind was.
I have also gone through days when I felt like tearing up at every small happy memory that croosed my mind because I could not experience those emotions anymore. Even now, I struggle to find out I actually am and who I want to be.
'But forever is just an illusion' - these words made quite an impact on me. So few words to convey an idea this big.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you ExquisiteEyes :) I didn't even send out RR's for this one I just wrote what I felt and just kind of left it. I'm glad you liked it :)

[Sami Khalil]

Sweet, sad and very reflective. Those precious memories live in the annals of history ready to be visited by our longings and sufferings. An excellent one. ...:)....

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Sami... our memories themselves can be a way to pull ourselves out of those dark times and back into some happy ones :) Appreciate your review buddy

[Sami Khalil]

Yep. You are welcome...:)....

[Relic]

~I think if we could, we'd all go back to earlier times. To fix what was broken and to assure ourselves who we are will expose itself in time. Your words are thoughtful and full of expression and emotion at the same time.~

[AaronFreitas]

Yes I agree... hence the movie Back to the Future... we just need a time machine now buddy :)

[Willard Wells]

One of the bad things of being a creative talent is there seems to be pain associated with it. While I feel the pain in your words, I see a natural raw talent coming through. Your sharing which is good for your soul in a therapeutic way, but also providing us the readers with some great writing.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Willard... it is therapeutic for me... it definitely helps to write these things out. :) Appreciate your review :)

[Aries1984]

Awww!!! Sweet memories. I love the poem as well. But as much as I would like to have nothing but feel good kind of days, it can get boring after a while lol. We can't really live with the a******s who can make our days miserable in this world, and unfortunately can't live without them either lol.

[AaronFreitas]

Very true... and we wouldn't have much to write about either haha... thanks buddy :)

[erinwrites]

This is heartbreaking, but very true and so so beautiful. I very much enjoyed this and I think you perfectly captured the essence of the feeling you get when you look back and realize all that's changed in your life

[AaronFreitas]

It's amazing how life changes in what seems to be so fast but it's always just a developing story that we are writing. Some are better than others and some not so great but we always have "our" story :)

[marcus]

ahh, looking over old photos, old memories, other selves? Awesome write!!

[AaronFreitas]

Yeah some flashbacks in these old pics! Funny how times change but I'm learning that we can create happiness... don't have to sit around and wait for it :)

[marcus]

we must be proactive in our search for happiness!

[AaronFreitas]

Oh yeah... I might have found some happiness recently...

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Hi Aaron, my life was the opposite. My past was full of heartache and pain. Things got better with time. Letting go is a process, taken me a long time and every time there is always something else to make us sad. For me, holding on to "the little" things helps. You write very personally, which draws me to your writing. I hope that writing it out helps relieve choke and gives you some space to breathe, dear poet

[AaronFreitas]

Thanks for the advice lynn :) It's funny how pictures can spark so many memories and feelings

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it's good to reflect my friend but we have to grow up eventually and life isn't always as perfect as it seems from that youthful viewpoint... I hope you find some of those days in your tomorrows... a great, honest write from the heart, my friend

[AaronFreitas]

Yeah those Ninja turtle days were fun and worry free but life changes... it's all about providing for my daughters now and being the best dad I can :)

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way to go, man... that is a great way to focus yourself... I am sure they are lucky to have you as a dad

[AaronFreitas]

Yeah I was going to put family pic with them but I just don't like sharing pics of my girls too many weirdos in the world lol

[....................]

I hear you, Aaron... as sad as it is.... you don't need to anyway, man, they are yours to enjoy... and this ain't FB lol

[AaronFreitas]

lol true i don't even keep a facebook... cafe is all I have

[micky]

Oh lovely piece Aaron and right now I just wna hug you my friend...tomorrow will be brighter....I dnt promise but I can hope

[AaronFreitas]

So far it is good but I never turn down hugs haha... thanks my friend :)

[B]

So freaking cute seriously

[AaronFreitas]

Aww thanks... the ninja turtle right? haha

[B]

yes lol
really cute

[AaronFreitas]

haha sweet... thank you :)

[B]

Hope you had a good day :)