What a day

No structure no format no organization... just a rough day as I looked back through pictures and saw myself at so many phases in life.

What a day as I sit and reflect 

On pictures from the past

Moments in time loaded

With happiness and smiles

If life could have only been that good forever

But forever is just an illusion

And everything eventually crumbles apart

At least that is the way my life has been

Everything I have ever loved has

Either let me down or has broken into 

Millions of pieces and all I am left with 

Are pictures to remind me of how happy

I was once upon a time. 

If life could have only been that good forever. 

Tears fall from my eyes just seeing my smile

In some of these pictures, a time when the future

Of life only seemed bright and loaded with promise.  

I guess a picture of myself today would reflect 

A vision of lost hope, fear and worry… 

Still battling daily to find who I am….

What does the future hold now?

What is the picture of tomorrow going to look like?

Author's Note

One of those days... put a few pics to show what I am looking at... everything from childhood pics to last week.

Reviews

[ExquisiteEyes]

I think the poems that have no structure can convey the emotions in raw form. In this poem, as you have said, it reflects how chaotic your mind was.
I have also gone through days when I felt like tearing up at every small happy memory that croosed my mind because I could not experience those emotions anymore. Even now, I struggle to find out I actually am and who I want to be.
'But forever is just an illusion' - these words made quite an impact on me. So few words to convey an idea this big.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you ExquisiteEyes :) I didn't even send out RR's for this one I just wrote what I felt and just kind of left it. I'm glad you liked it :)

[Ms. Twitch]

I've had my days and my room is covered with old photos from childhood to high school; all just really amazing memories but also brings up other emotions. Similar photos to what you posted (beautiful pics ps. love your smile). I enjoyed reading this piece and the emotions it brought up as well. Thank you for sharing this and good vibes to you :)

[AaronFreitas]

Aww thanks for the compliment :) Yeah, the day I wrote this was definitely one of those day. To look back at my sister and I as kids and remember how free life was. No worries, no bills and the only stress for me back then was me trying to perfect how accurately I could throw a baseball against the wall lol... this one was kind of a hidden piece... I wrote it and didn't send any read requests or anything. Just let people find it if they looked at my page :) Thank you very much :)

[Insight "MH"]

The yesterdays must influence the tomorrows.
The moments of the past are the treasures of the future which reminds us how we were before and we must now be as that time, true and pure.

Thanks for the enlightenment that your write gave.

Insight.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much insight... appreciate your review :)

[Insight "MH"]

You are very welcome. ^_^

[StimulateyourCreativity]

Wow that's amazing, you made me feel what it is like to reminisce on my old times. Bravo and enjoy every moment my friend

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you... I remember it being one of those days where I just sat back and flashed back through some memories. Glad you enjoyed it :)

[GreenShoes]

Rough days like that can be emotionally draining. The good thing about draining is that it unloads much of the bad stuff and you come out of it refreshed. We humans don't really need much to survive, but on some days a hug makes the difference between surviving and living, but we don't get a hug. So we have to hug ourselves, and know that no matter what life throws at us, we still have our best friend, ourselves.

[AaronFreitas]

You are right some days are emotionally draining and when you string many days together it starts to get hard. Thanks for your feedback and review :)

[Cassie]

Hurts come and go and good things even if they dont last, they leave us with a good memory and from that you are able to write about and excite our minds as you also make our minds and hearts sad. Bottom line, let us keep those memories of good things and of bad things, we can write about and that way they will slowly fade.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Cassie :) Appreciate your review :)

[Zahra]

forever is just an illusion - so true. Very well penned.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you Zahra :) Sometimes it does feel that way

[africa]

Good writing. You covered your chosen subject well.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much africa :)

[Miyana Sparks]

"But forever is an illusion."
This is so true on so many levels, to be honest. Sometimes, there are these moments in when we'd wish it would last forever, even though you know that's not really going to happen.
Loved the poem, can relate to it. :)

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you Miyana... I am glad you can relate :) Sorry so late responding

[Mitali Shah]

So sweet Aaron. We often point the regrets and grudges till out last but forget the happy times we always had though it is now a past. Very well penned. God bless. May you soon keep on adding such special memories in your life's treasure box. :)

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you Mitali :) I appreciate your review my friend :D

[Mitali Shah]

Your welcome dear