A Painful Day

This one is about a moment, a day that was one of the worst days of my life. Open to your interpretation :)

The pain still lingers from that depressing day,

I wanted it so bad only for it to blow away.

The agony, the heart break, too much to take;

Crying in my sleep but not wanting to awake.

 

My heart was broken, cut and left bleeding

And I couldn’t see where this was leading.

That horrible moment replays in my mind,

This is a wound that doesn’t heal with time.

 

I shut my emotions off to avoid the pain,

Dysfunction becomes the way I stay sane.

I wonder if someday this wound will heal…

Or is this an illusion and none of it’s real?

Author's Note

Please read and review :)

Reviews

[Nightfeather]

Wounds may heal but scares will replace your old wounds but at least the pain has swayed. Sometimes I also get the feeling that my mind is playing tricks with me and shutting of the emotions is indeed a way to feel no pain, but never forget: no pain, no gain. Pain is temporary, salvation is permanent.

Good job :D

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you Nightfeather :) Appreciate your feedback :)

[Robert]

A very heart felt piece Aaron. Raw emotion is shown in this piece and good format wit the stanzas. I think it will heal but the wound will always have scars.

[AaronFreitas]

Scars will always remain my friend... appreciate your words and feedback buddy... thank you :)

[Stacey]

I can totally relate to this situation. I've felt like this before. Very well written, and it painted a very vivid picture. Ad sad picture, but a vivid picture. Well done.


Stacey

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Stacey :) I like the name Stacey too better than the name you don't like haha... appreciate your review :)

[Stacey]

You're welcome. :)

[KWP]

oohhh yeah the pain will stay just as long as you decide it's time to let it go - we hummans are funny like that - we like to keep that extra baggage fro a gloomy day - then we can pull it out and validate our reason for feeling gloomy even more so.

I like your words here - simple and oh so relatable - for everyone

now - just let that s**t go man !!! :)

LOVE

[AaronFreitas]

haha maybe it's already gone and I'm just flashing back to write :) You'll never know my friend haha... appreciate your reviews always :)

[KWP]

So you sayin' this is a self help poem at no charge - thanks man!

[AaronFreitas]

haha maybe... how can I charge I'm on a budget lol

[KWP]

cheques in da mail XX

[AaronFreitas]

lol sweet :)

[Jamestown]

Well written and delivered!
The last stanza in really thought provoking,
Keep up the good work my friend:)
Thanks for sharing and b-blessed!

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much James... always appreciate your comments :)

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Written in words its multiple questions...but in feelings, its a single, over complicated pain...that we will never understand...and time will never completely heal, but it will give a damn good therapy everyday. It will always hurt...but all the less as time passes. I can relate to this right now...and for a long, long time. I hope it doesn't hurt you that much. Rating this piece 100#

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much IM.... appreciate your review always :) And appreciate you always supporting me :)

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Always welcome my friend :)

[JayceeC]

I think it's good to leave out some specifics and significant events when it opens the poem up for self-interpretation Aaron. We do not need the catalyst to this day to relate to exactly how you are feeling. time does lessen the pain, even if it is from numbness. We sometimes grow comfortable with the pain. Strangely enough assimilating it is sometimes worse because it feels like something is missing until you get used to "normal" again.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Jan... I wanted to leave it open more so than some of my other writes. Was hoping it would be a piece people can read and say those words hit home for them without my story over taking their moment when reading. I guess time does lessen the pain... enough to write about the emotion and share. The moment I'm talking about is years ago... that's all I'll reveal :)

[JayceeC]

Oh I can relate to waiting years...
btw...second pass this reminded me of an old school Eminem rap.

[AaronFreitas]

haha old school Eminem is awesome lol... well this was a flash back to a day in high school so maybe it fits lol

[Confuser]

Aaron: What a fantastic poem! Oh, my I love it; A painful day alright, but perfectly expressed, the last stanza is phenomenal, but the whole poem flow, pours emotions that any reader can relate to: I was thinking of A Painful Day, and that heartbreak that seems like an eternity but only a moment has passed away. You are so talented! I thank you so very much! Bravo....Dale

I shut my emotions off to avoid the pain,
Dysfunction becomes the way I stay sane.
I wonder if someday this wound will heal…
Or is this an illusion and none of it’s real?

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Dale... I appreciate your kind words.... they made me feel a little better about this piece. I usually provide the details and what I am talking about but this time I kept the emotion in and left out the easy answers :) Thank you so much

[Confuser]

You're welcome Aaron, but I loved it....you are a wonderful writer!

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you so much Dale.... that means a lot to hear that from you :)

[Confuser]

Bye...............................................................................:)D

[D.T.]

This is very deep and I love how you can feel the emotion and pain in the poem. While reading..I could relate this poem to many different things..it's a really good and emotional piece.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much D.T. Usually the reader knows exactly what I'm talking about but I left a little to the imagination on this one. Appreciate your review :)

[Nadia B.]

A good reminder to appreciate the best of days. On the surface the text seems to say the poem will be simple yet reading it, the complexities and the emotions which drip from every letter says otherwise. The rhythm seems to try to mask this unbearable pain but the rhyming of the last words in each sentence is laid waste but strength of the truth you create, about a situation no one ever wants to have to face. Even though in our own time we all do...and if your name is Matt then acrostically the middle Stanza is simply genius. Thank you for sharing and I wish for you healing and awakening from such a dreadful nightmare to what is real...that the world is still beautiful and rainclouds do pass, that even storms can't break mustard seeds, and so you will make it out alive and stronger than before. Please keep writing, and don't ever give up! Really love the sincerity of your poems, that you are not afraid to show who you are, very brave, don't ever change that.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Nadia... no one would want to read a bunch of poems about how perfect everything is would they? lol I guess my life makes for a good read and I hope that it touches people in some way or another :) I appreciate your in depth review... you are too kind :) Thank you very much

[Nadia B.]

By teaching others the hard life's lessons you have learned, gives purpose and meaning to all you have had to go through, a reminder that it was not for nothing, but I do hope your lighter days outshine the dark ones.

[AaronFreitas]

Very true... appreciate that :)

[Willard Wells]

I see why you said open to interpretation. The next one should be, And now the rest of the story. I could hang this write on everything from lost love, friend, loved one, or direction. Everyone can find a connection with their life I expect. I feel pain in the write, but not so much in the writer??

[AaronFreitas]

Haha I know exactly what I am writing about... the pain, emotion is all there without telling you what it's about :)

[Willard Wells]

I think the disconnect for me of the pain of the writer was because it was left so vague. But I did like it a lot.

[AaronFreitas]

Thanks I appreciate that. Usually the reader knows exactly where my mind is and exactly what I am talking about. I wanted to leave a little mystery to it kind of keep it to myself what I was writing about :)