This one is for you... to the Cafe

I started to write and this is what came out today... I appreciate all my friends on here

I want to write today because I miss my friends, their kind words and their responses to the thoughts that flood my mind on a daily basis.  Yet, as I sit and review poems I am stuck… almost emotionless.  Not happy but not sad.  Not elated yet not mad.  I don’t want to write dark, don’t want to write about love.  I sit and think about what is on my mind and I am running on empty.  I can’t say it is writers block, I always have something to say.  I guess at this moment I am just coasting through my days not doing much of anything other than hoping something exciting happens today.  I wait for requests to review because it makes me happy, happy to know that my friends are out there writing and doing their thing.  I just wonder when my mojo is going to come back, my passion to tell you what I am thinking or feeling and the moment I can pour my emotions on to paper for you to all read.  I miss all of you guys…if you only knew how s****y my existence is at times and the things I go through on a daily basis.  My moment away from it all is when I open up the Café… almost as if I am entering a different world where we don’t judge each other but we admire each other’s passions, feelings and hard work.  I mean it when I say writing helps save my sanity.  It is more than a passion, more than an outlet.  Writing is more of a savior to my existence until the pieces of the puzzle known as my life are all picked up and put back together.  I’ve told you all about my failed marriage, my kids, my depression and everything in between.  And everyone is amazing enough to take a few moments to review my work and leave a message and regardless of the words in the message I understand that the words truly mean you are there for me and I appreciate that more than anything.  So thank you to those that actually take the time to read this…. I opened up a blank document and this is what came out today.  Enjoy

Reviews

[W R Stowe]

Life is like an amusement park,we have two types of relationships 1) "the merry go-round which runs slow so you can get in and out providing the ride is operating which unfortunately is the choice made by many they are the ones whom lack commitment" 2)"the roller coaster which once you board you get strapped in and have to continue all the ups and downs twist and spins and cork screwing putting you upside down at times until the ride comes to a stop.The ride is over when one of us dies I told my wife from the get go that a relationship with me would be the thrilling and adventuring roller coaster ride.Writing is not much different from a Ferris wheel here your just stopped to pick up a new writer what you think of my analogy?

Bill

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you my friend.... I like that analogy... its so true. :)

[W R Stowe]

your are quite welcome Aaron

Bill

[sereenaoutloud]

I'm new to this site but glad you opened up the blank documents and let this out! so raw and honest . I wish you more happy days and good things to come your way!

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much! Welcome to the site... it's awesome. Lots of good people on here. And I see you are from Cali... gotta share that Cali love! haha

[nazia]

the pain of missing someone is actually understood when you are all alone and need to see the very person.. An honest description... very well expressed :)

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Nazia! I appreciate your review

[Mary Bradley]

Lovely and honest poem AaronFreitas. May life open up better opportunities for you to make up for all the unpleasantness you went through . Take care and thank you for sharing :-)

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much for the review Mary. I am hoping good opportunities open up... keeping my fingers crossed :)

[Melinda McQueen]

Write it out hun, write it out. Sometimes that's all you have to do. Sometimes it's all you CAN do.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much... sometimes it works that way. Thanks for taking time to review... I appreciate you stopping by don't be a stranger :)

[~]

A good and honest journal entry my friend. I appreciate you too :) and your writing is always strong and genuine whether it is dark or playful. I pray for warmth in your heart always.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Skittles :) I appreciate you also... don't be a stranger

[T. Adams]

Vulnerability is hard, and Thank you for sharing this.

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much for the review :)

[Ana D S M]

I can really appreciate the honestly in this.
It will come, in the mean time it sounds like you are among friends in a good place.

[AaronFreitas]

Yeah I have made some really good friends on here and I appreciate everyone who takes the time to read and review my work as well as send me requests for their work. It's a great place filled with great writers. :)

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Appreciative lines from an appreciative soul. For a blank page you've covered it well. Thanks for sharing Aaron... your appreciation and your writes. - FT

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much! At first when I joined the site I was just a selfish writer writing whatever I pleased in a very lazy manner and posting. After making more friends and reading others work it helped me want to be better and want to put out words my friends could enjoy and be proud of.

[....................]

Reading is an important part of writing as it helps us experience new ways of expressing ourselves while keeping an eye out for those who write really well. I've learned a lot since my brief time here and am happy to have so many wonderful poets whose work inspires me to strive to write better. Good luck my friend! - FT

[Gee]

Hi Aaron,here's hoping life looks kindly upon you going forward.With regards to writers block,you should go visit mine and read some of the shite I come out with just to pass time.Take care.

[AaronFreitas]

haha I definitely will :) Thanks for taking time to stop by :)

[gabrielle]

When we continuously to do similar things for a period of time, we sometimes get burned out. I think that when we feel that we can no longer write with fervor just like before, perhaps our mind and/or our heart is telling us that we should take a break. Thank you for giving us a glimpse of your thoughts..

[AaronFreitas]

Thank you very much Gabrielle :) There are some things I don't share if you believe that with as much as I do share haha sometimes they just eat away at me... thanks for the review I appreciate it :)